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It's Political
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Straight Female / 30
I'm A Survivor Of An Entrapment In College
I was pretty insecure as a girl. I went to my mother's alma mater for college. When I got there, starting with my freshman roommate, I was convinced that I was naturally born lesbian. I didn't feel lesbian but I went along. By the time I graduated I had been sexually active only with lesbians. I moved, followed my lesbian partner to the Bay area. After a short time I asked a friend to help me leave her.
This friend, after hearing me out, said she didn't think I was lesbian. She said she had been there, and it sounded more like I had been seduced into it, I should get as far away as possible. I went home, back to my parents. There I met a man who worked with the bank. He was nice, but standoffish. After a few times talking to him he said I was hiding something. I told him about college.
He invited me to experience sex like it should be. We went to dinner and he pointed out the gays there, for every one that's obvious, there's one that isn't. We went to a bar, ladies night, a woman asked me to dance. He told me would watch. She was very physical, lots of hugging and kisses. I went back to the table and told him I was ready.
We had doll sex, formal, not intimate. But it was with a man sex. I wasn't invited for a repeat. Over the next months I went out with him a few times, but no sex. I wanted to dance with that girl. But I told myself I hadn't been tested. I pursued more man sex. Until he wanted something more serious. Today I live in the straight heterosexual world.
My path through the lesbian homosexual world took eight years. I never was lesbian.
This friend, after hearing me out, said she didn't think I was lesbian. She said she had been there, and it sounded more like I had been seduced into it, I should get as far away as possible. I went home, back to my parents. There I met a man who worked with the bank. He was nice, but standoffish. After a few times talking to him he said I was hiding something. I told him about college.
He invited me to experience sex like it should be. We went to dinner and he pointed out the gays there, for every one that's obvious, there's one that isn't. We went to a bar, ladies night, a woman asked me to dance. He told me would watch. She was very physical, lots of hugging and kisses. I went back to the table and told him I was ready.
We had doll sex, formal, not intimate. But it was with a man sex. I wasn't invited for a repeat. Over the next months I went out with him a few times, but no sex. I wanted to dance with that girl. But I told myself I hadn't been tested. I pursued more man sex. Until he wanted something more serious. Today I live in the straight heterosexual world.
My path through the lesbian homosexual world took eight years. I never was lesbian.