Were you outed and didn't want to be? Need to talk about your very first time or encounter? Have a question about technique or about safe sex? Whatever it is, lay it all out here. This category is specifically for lesbian stories.

Married Off At 17 To A Gay Man, I Learned That I Was A Lesbian

Fitting in as a the woman of the house was a big challenge. I went to live with him totally inexperienced, sexually or otherwise. I couldn't cook hot water, I didn't make the bed, I had never cleaned a bathroom. Marriage was a totally new experience.

In my house, we lived in a developing country, we had maids for everything. And yes even when we were little we had a maid to wipe our butts. Now, alone in an apartment in a college town in Iowa, I was faced with the part of being married. My husband, who was there for his PhD in Animal Science, was 30. I was 17. I was married to him to take care of him while he was away from home.

Well, this is what happened. First there was no sex. Nothing, nada. I didn't have to worry, he told me, when I was old enough for it he would let me know. I slept in one of the two rooms and he put me in a school to learn English. He asked a lady who worked for the Animal Science department to teach me how to use American appliances. She was twenty four.

My first lesson was the washing machine. Sorting clothes on the floor before taking them down to the washing machines in the basement. Sorting out my 'dirty' things. Those she put a pot of hot water on the stove and boiled them in soap. Next was how to make a bed properly, then how to clean the bathroom. All the time checking on the clothes in the basement and to see if the stains had come out of my 'dirty' things.

I was shown how to use a vacuum cleaner, how to cleanout the refrigerator. How to set a table, all in all, how to be a woman. She had me undress for her and taught me how to shave myself so that my pubes didn't poke out from my underwear. First she had me stand on a towel, and with a pair of scissors trim down the wild jungle, until it was short and tame, then to lather myself and shave me down to the edge of my lips. She told me that when a man wants to 'eat' you he doesn't want hair in his nostrils. What?

She taught me how to wipe myself correctly, because she noticed that in my 'dirty' things I had 'skid marks'. A girl has to keep herself clean for a husband.

She was a 'buxom' woman, with large breasts. Not something that in my country a lot of women had. I wasn't one of them, I was small compared to her. She showed me how to fit my bra. Then while I was standing topless in my panties, after she had trimmed back the jungle and shaved my bikini, she kissed me on the lips and told me she was going to take care of me.

For the two years I was there she took good care of me. She helped me do my housework, and helped me learn how to be a woman. I learned how to let her 'eat' me, and how to 'eat' her. I loved being held with my face in her bosoms and having her twist my nipples. I was very sexually active with her. My husband had his friends and his PhD program. He never approached me.

When he finished his program and we returned to our country, I was a little older and wiser. I knew how to ask the maid to wash my panties by boiling them on the stove and I had learned to wipe myself with soap and water. I trimmed down my jungle and shave myself carefully. I knew how to have the table set and what to have cooked for his dinner. But he never came to me, and I started having sex with a lady painter. She was older, and very much more aggressive. She bit me, both my nipples and my clit, and she liked poking me up with these dildos. 'Getting me ready' for my husband.

I was married for five years before my husband came to me, it was his duty to get me pregnant. I was still only 23 but I had no desire for him. I submitted to being made pregnant, my lady friend managed his approaches. Only when I was fertile, and she kept track of my fertility with a thermometer. He had done his duty, and I was doing mine.

One day my lady friend asked me what I thought my husband was doing? About his sexual pleasure. She showed me a photograph that she had a man take for her, my husband with a young man, younger than I was, at an all boy party. Your husband is a homosexual, she told me. And with that she made love to me, and after the lovemaking, she spent time rubbing my tummy down with oils and ointments to prevent stretch marks.

I live in California, I moved here twenty seven years ago with lady friend and my three daughters.

  • My Lesbian World My One And Only Shield I Was So Fortunate For My Time

    I was introduced to lesbian love early in my teen years. I was a student at an all girl Catholic school, my first lover was an art teacher there. All the excuses, the prayers of forgiveness, the blame at the foot of the demon were there. And the deep seated desire that was awakened in me. I pursued the sex, I was open to her use of me, I gave myself, I was then a very sexually charged lesbian girl.

    In the equivalent of the 8th grade we were discovered. My teacher disappeared, left the country. I was sent to another school. A mixed school. My feelings for my teacher were deep and being torn from her led to social problems, and parental rebellion. I was sent to a boarding school in Geneva, which was home to many pregnant girls from good families, and incorrigible lesbians.

    I was perpetually in trouble, but my art shone through. I was graduated early and accepted at Parsons in New York. A young first year student, a thirsty lesbian girl. At Parsons I met other lesbians and we were sexually active. I graduated with a degree in Fine Arts and lived with my lesbian lover in the city.

    The Viet Nam war ended, the campus protest ended, the world moved on. We settled in, worked on art, were socially active, well hidden in the lesbian world. My father became ill and my cousin came to take me home. I had been gone ten years, I was 25. My cousin cautioned me to leave my lesbian life alone.

    I spent the following ten years commuting between my home and NYC. My love and girlfriend died of an embolism. I returned permanently to live with my mother, as she was a widow. My cousin was my escort, and provider of lesbian girls. One night wonders, in his lake side cottage. One of the girls he introduced to me was the daughter of an Army General. I fell in love again, and we became a couple.

    Living as lesbians within society was breaking new ground. In a conservative political and religious society we stepped carefully but did not deny our relationship. In the end when everything is settled, with the benefit of hindsight, it was my cousin who protected me. He was the guardian angel, he made it possible for us to be together.

    We are all older and maybe wiser, as old lesbians we live a quiet life on our farm not far from the city. I've buried my mother, my cousin is the head of the family. He was instrumental in me going to Switzerland, then Parsons. A shield for a lesbian girl.

    A Short Description Of My Work Pod And Our Lesbian Denominator

    I work in the back office of a charity organization. Our pod is six people, all female. What we all have in common is a lesbian association.

    J is the controller, she is from India and she is distraught because her elder daughter refused the man that was chosen for her because she is a lesbian.

    A is a younger hispanic girl who has had a hard life, paternal sexual assault, physical restraints. She was saved by a lesbian school counselor when she was 14 and she became her guardian. She doesn't want to tell her caretaker mother that she is not a lesbian, and has been 'acting' to appease her.

    B is a newly minted citizen who after a five years of marriage, to the man that got her her citizenship, she believes that she is a lesbian and is in love with P.

    P is not a lesbian, but likes to play around with lesbians because it is safe sex. She is the work wife of the Big Boss and he gets his hands on her. She dismisses it as the stuff she has to put up with. She has confessed to me that she would do anal but he won't.

    C is a 40 year old lesbian who all of a sudden finds herself in love with her sister's husband. She discovered that all along she was denying herself man sex. She has taken me into confidence and describes in minute detail how he has sex with her. I listen, I like it when sexual activities are described out loud and it tickles my 'fancy'. I'm a voyeur and love to read all about it.

    And me, I'm a lesbian from college and am currently pregnant with my neighbor's child. A miscue at a party. I've decided to keep the baby, I'm not so ready for him to be involved. Too much closeness. I am more than happy if he pays the state for child support and they forward me the money.

  • My Secret Life And My Secret Past Revealed My Boss Fucks Me Now

    My mother and grandmother are both very tall. I inherited that as well, I topped out at five eleven. In a world where almost all women are shorter being so tall made me stand out and it made me want to hide. I got called a giraffe by the other students in school.

    One day after high school, before I went to college, I walked out of a restaurant with a friend. She is also tall, and we both played volleyball. This man walked up to us and told us he was doing a shoot for an advertisement of the restaurant, and we were perfect, and if we would let him shoot some pictures with us to use in the advertisement. We would give consent.

    The pictures were good, two high school girls at the door, with the restaurant sign above, and the downtown skyline behind that. He told me I had the look that photographers looked for with models, and being tall helped, short girls didn't make good shoots. He had me stand still, pull my shoulders back, 'yes get that rack going girl' and some of that. He gave me the name of a photographer in town and I should look him up, he gave me his name to use when I called.

    I didn't call immediately, but when I did the photographer said he remembered his friend telling him about me. I went to his business, in the older part of town, in a small house. He had a small reception in front, and a studio in the next room, and the technical and developing room behind. He said he liked the feel of developing his own pictures, as opposed to digital and he showed me some wedding pictures and family pictures. If I wanted I could sign the release and he would take some pictures and see if he could market them.

    In the room for the photographs, it was dark and the windows were shaded so he could control the light, he wanted me to, well undress. Nude shots is what he said sold best,. The first set were demure shots, covering my breasts, but the other ones were X rated and the more he encouraged me the lioness in me came out. Full frontal, on my back my legs held high, back side photographs, tit pictures, anything goes. He developed them and showed them to me and I got hot. Like hot enough to rub myself silly with them.

    All through college I 'modeled' for him, the photographs were used for all sorts of magazines and digital sites. Names like Clara, and Cristine, and Elain were used. The more I shot the more I got hot. It was in college that I realized, like a light going off, that I liked to see naked women and rub out an orgasm or two. He had lots of girl photographs and he loaned me the ones that made feel hot.

    He introduced me to a girl and said he would shoot us together, making out. Both naked, on a small bed so that the photographer can get all your parts. we kissed and made out. I liked it, kissing with her and I was soon dating her and we were making out alone without him, and kissing the forbidden fruit. The more we dated, the more we kissed and made out, the more we went down and had pussy for desert, the more she came out and introduce me to the lesbian scene in town. Gay is gay, but lesbian is lesbian and the twain shall never meet. Who gives a fuck about gay men and their problems, we had our own. I embraced the lifestyle and having a girlfriend to make out.

    The lesbian scene lasted until well after I graduated and got a real job. My other life, the girls, the photographs, all that had to stay in the background. One day at work I broke a tooth. My boss took me to his dentist and said it was an emergency and I needed to be looked at right away. The dental assistant that attended to me was a lesbian I had met in the lesbian underworld. Small world, really. She has such fine tits. And she made sure that her tits got in the way as she helped the dentist do his work.

    When I left, my boss was waiting in the reception, she came out and said 'sweetie you forgot your kiss' and she planted one on me in front of my boss. That's how my night life, my past, my favorite things came to light with my boss. And for him, there is nothing better than a tall naked girl leaning over the kitchen counter to fuck. I have to lay there beside him and tell him stories of lesbian women I've been with, how lesbians fuck. Details, details, and photographs too. Of me, naked, of me kissing a girl too. Then he fucks me. And that's how it's been for a while now, since he found out.

    Standing In For The Woman I Love

    Right after college I worked as a nanny for two kids. The couple had different jobs, he worked a corporate job and she was a school teacher. Because I spent all day in her home and dealt with her children I became very close to her and her children, and I stayed on as nanny well after they went on to school.

    Her husband was always very nice to me and we got along, but there wasn't room for conversation. One sentence followed with a one sentence answer. One day the wife told me that she was going to have a hysterectomy. Seems like she had had a lot of complications and had a lot pain during menstruation and the doctors recommended she entertain (I like that word) a hysterectomy. As it was associated with her uterus, it wasn't a full hysterectomy, they wouldn't take (I like that word too) her ovaries. Then she, going on very serious, she said I was going to have to step and take care of her husband. He wanted more children, at least two, and her problems had prevented her from fulfilling his wishes. And I was the only one she trusted for this, I was part of the family.

    It was a serious conversation, and she ended it by telling me to get pregnant now, only after I was pregnant would she go forward and have her womb removed. Holding my hand, 'do this for me, do this for the children'. At 29 I got pregnant by her husband.

    Getting pregnant by him became a whole set of other problems, he considered me 'fair game' and insisted on having sex with me regularly. His wife insisted I entertain (I like that word too) him, make him happy (how about that word), give yourself (and that one too) be the woman you always wanted to be.

    He was having sex with me long after she recovered from her operation. I was eight months heavy and I had to entertain him. In talks with his wife she assured me that as long as I wasn't giving birth I could have sex and use my vagina. At least she didn't ask for me to use my poop shoot. I had sex up until ten days before delivering.

    He has sex with me regularly, I entertain him and he is happy. She thinks it is the most wonderful thing in the world that I was able to bring them two new babies. She doesn't have to feel useless because she had to give up her womb. I shouldn't say this because you might miss the point, I am in love with her, not him. Always have been. Always will be. It's her I love, it's her I want happy, it's her I feel for. Not him. His sex with me is instead of her, and if keeping him away (another word) from her I'll do it. When I say 'lean on me', I mean it, he can lean on me and use me, my vagina can take it, whether it is taking him sexually or delivering the product of it.

    If after he has sex with me she is smiling, well then I've done a good job.

  • I'm Having Ever More Vivid Fantasies Of A Man Taking Me And Using Me

    I teach Latin in High School in a fairly wealthy school district. I'm 39 and unmarried. I have interests that concentrate on school activities and love being around students who honestly want to learn. My reputation is on the side of a prude. I do not like talking about sex and do not like pornography. I do have a problem with the objectification of women. I am plain Jane and wear glasses, contacts never worked for me, I have a small bust and lean on being thin or skinny. I like my vulva and get wet pretty easily. As to men, I'm a virgin and have fantasies, but they tend to be on the abusive side. I have only 'made love' with a woman.

    The woman I have sexual activities with teaches Physics. She is divorced for over twenty years, she married a high school boy but it ended. She is big for a girl and has large breasts and a big vulva. She is aggressive and she initiates contact. She likes trapping me between her legs and eating her to orgasm. I cook and clean and do many of the other things women do and feel that it is just a burden befallen on us. I do not like yard work and have no interest in mechanical objects. She grooms my vulva and likes me freshly shaven. I like that look and love to sport it. I like tight panties that pull up on my crotch, but not thongs. I like her in tight panties and like her holding me tight in her bosom. Breasts have always been my soft spot, big tit Mary types with thighs and strong hands. I like eating her through her panties, especially after a long day at work and her strong smell arouses me.

    We do not live together and we do not teach at the same high school. She teaches at a lower income demographic with lots of troubled homes and she empties out on me. It's not her fault and there is nothing she can do about it. My school district has a high income demographic and college educated. Sex is our outlet, if it weren't for sex we would probably not see each other.

    I do wonder at times, like I said I have fantasies, about being brought down by some man in the wilderness. Always outdoors, perhaps picking berries, or another outing. I can 'feel' him tearing into me, tearing up my beautiful vulva, leaving his 'mark' in me. I can feel his hand on my neck holding me down to wash the floorboards. When I refuse he slaps me. He likes his clothes hand washed in the river, and he likes me barefoot. My dream is alive when it happens, and I wake up with my heart racing and I am wet and dripping. When I have these fantasies it takes me a day or two to get over them. I have never talked to my lover about then, it embarrasses me to tell her what I dream about. This fantasy started when I was still a girl in high school, and as time has passed the dreams have not faded. Except now they are more vivid and their is no romance in them. The fantasy is a period piece, I'm always some maiden in a one room cabin in the wilderness, sometime during the settling of America.

    I know that I'm a lesbian woman, but I do not have romantic feelings for my current lover.

    Walking The Walk As An Adult

    Unbearing my soul. As a child I had a normal girlhood. My grandmother lived with us and she was the one we learned about girl stuff. My mother was very much a girl but she worked outside the house. There was just no question about it, born a girl, be a girl. I suppose my brother says the same thing, he never had a choice, he was going to be a boy, and a man.

    It was in my early teens that I began to question myself. Why didn't I like boys? And why did I like this certain girl? We didn't 'experiment', we talked over and over about our reality, one day we were going to get pregnant, and we knew how that happened, and that's where we drew the line. Not me!

    When we finished high school she went to beauty school and I went to work with my mother. She had a lot of influence and me working there meant being trained. One day the owner told my mother things were different, maybe I needed to be sent to college. Things were changing. Going to college meant leaving home. That was the day we had 'sex'. She shook in my arms, distraught that I was leaving. My life changed that day.

    In college, a small state college, I did well in school. Worked summers with my mother, went homes many weekends, and spent every available hour with my girlfriend. We had 'real' sex. I read up on it at the library at college. It's a big, big step the first time you open up a girl and stick your tongue in her.

    I finished my degree with a job waiting for me. By them the rumors in town were repeating the same thing. It had to do with us being, you know, girls who weren't ever getting married. We remained home girls, meaning we lived at home and didn't move out. At home I never got any pushback, but I was reminded that not having children was a very special kind of loneliness, and emptiness I could never fill.

    I surrendered myself at 37 to a man. All I could think about was how he could like looking at that. It was bad enough having one, but looking at it? Yuck, triple yuck. Well, it was yuck all the way around. I succumbed to societal norms, got married and had two later in life children. My girlfriend did much the same, time was literally running out for us.

    We are late middle aged lesbians living in the town where we were born. We have husbands and early teen children, who are parsed out to learn how to be girls, and how to be boys. We repeat what we were told, it is about children, there is no substitute for them. That kind of loneliness is not something you wish for your worst enemy. And if it means joining the legions of married women, then do it. You will always have that girlfriend, even if you make a bed for a man.

    When You Just Have To Kiss Her

    During the summer between my freshman and sophomore year at college I kissed a girl. It wasn't my kiss, it was hers. But I kissed her back. It was a reaction, I wanted to kiss her. She put her hand on my chest, covering my boob and pressing hard. I felt myself get wet, then I was so wet I could smell myself. I kissed back harder and put my arm around her neck.

    I was careless and one time when I met her at the mall I kissed her on the mouth, and held her hand. A friend of my mother's saw it all and reported back to her. My mother accused the other girl of perverting me and prohibited me seeing her. My grandmother told me to be careful, kissing girls weren't accepted, so be careful.

    I wasn't given permission to go back to college that fall. I was presented to a series of marriage eligible males. One of them was going to start his residency, that's the one my mother wanted me to marry. We were married in a short engagement of three weeks, in the backyard by the pool. I left for Galveston where my husband did his residency at UTMB in family medicine. I changed my major and finished a degree in nursing.

    After we returned to live in my hometown and my husband joined a family medicine practice, I ran into my freshman love interest. She was innocently sitting at an outside table in front of an Italian restaurant and I walked up behind her and covered her eyes and kissed her cheek. She was very upset at being caught off guard, she too had gotten married and had a two year old. But the kiss when we said we would meet again said it all.

    My husband doesn't care if I see her, he doesn't care if we get feisty. Why should it bother him, two girls being girls who like each other. Her husband is in the dark, we see each other for extended benefits at my house. Sometimes its wild and it's hard to stop. Saying see you later is hard and we kiss away the minutes until she has to go.

    I remember grandma, be careful, kissing girls aren't accepted.

    I'm Married And I'm 'his' Woman, But I'm Still A Lesbian

    Sometimes being a lesbian is not a barrier of entry. I worked with a man who had a desire for me, and voiced it, and got inside my personal space. It was a constant push back, but he was tone deaf. I had a girlfriend who left me to look for fame in the theater. I was heartbroken. And it was into his arms that I sought comfort.

    I went to a business lunch with him, and sat beside a lesbian lawyer. On the drive back to the office he told me he didn't like her looking at me that way, and why I didn't tell her to fuck off. He pulled the car over and let me know he was making me his woman and I was to consider myself his from then on.

    He turned around and drove me to my now empty apartment. He sat on the couch and told me to take it all off, even my earrings. He wanted to inspect the merchandise. Tits and ass and everything else. Once he was satisfied he told me to turn down the bed and offer myself to him. When he fucked me he wanted to know he was fucking his woman.

    He 'gave me' the afternoon off and returned to the office. He came for his woman often, at Christmas he gave me an engagement ring with instructions to wear it, and let all my friends and family I was his woman. And he wanted a kid by the following Christmas.

    The ceremony was private, my girlfriend came back from New York to give me away. Two of my lesbian friends stood with me. The reception was at a lesbian restaurant decked out for lesbians. It never phased him, as part of my vows I had to repeat I was now his wife and woman, all legal.

    I had a boy in late November, my girlfriend had moved back and was by my side for the delivery.

    I may be married to him, I may have his kid, I may be his woman, and probably pregnant, but I'm a lesbian and I'm in love with my girlfriend. And she's in love with me, and she's not leaving my side again. And he knows it because I told him.

  • Spurned By Our Boyfriend We've Opted To Move Ahead Without Him

    I had a boyfriend in college, he graduated two years earlier. We stayed in touch and he came to my parents' for Thanksgiving. Everyone saw us marrying after I graduated and he went along with it, but no ring, no engagement. After I graduated I returned home while I weighed grad school.

    On a whim I decided to go see him, surprise him, In my heart I thought we would go ring shopping. When I showed up he was caught totally by surprise. He was nervous and uncomfortable me staying with him. In the dirty clothes basket I found a pair of panties. I confronted him.

    There wasn't a story for him, he confessed to seeing a girl from his office. Nothing serious, but I wasn't there, he needed relief. Even I didn't buy it. I insisted on meeting her. A younger girl, she was a that year hire, from SMU. Good looking, of rich parents, and she was convinced he was going to marry her. And she had never heard of me.

    He wasn't ready to let me go, or let her go. He liked having both of us. We gave him an ultimatum, show up with a ring, one ring, and ring one girl. That didn't happen. We put more pressure on him. He either chose, or we both walked. Under the pressure he walked. Leaving both of us with empty hands.

    What happened next was never planned. I moved in with her to get a job, postponing grad school. Two years later she moved with me while I worked on my Masters. She worked, I went to school. Over the time I was in grad school we slipped into an intimate relationship. We laughed at first, then got serious. By the time I finished we were well on our way to getting married.

    He came to our wedding. He was upset, visibly. It was a total tough shit moment. He didn't want just one of us. Now he couldn't have either one of us. We are pretty low key about it, live a roommate life, but in one room, one bed. We've worked out the mechanics. And have a couple of wedding bands on hand while we get up the nerve to marry.

    He won't be best man, we don't need one. We'll have a quiet small wedding. In February, the 14th. It's a date that calls to us.