I Can Feel It Getting Worse
I’ve always been a bigger girl not super heavy but above average, your classic chubby girl. I never really had issues with food. My mom was always skinny and had me on diet tabs through Highschool but it never really helped. I got a boyfriend and we moved in together after high school. We had 2 kids. It was shortly after I had my daughter and was at my heaviest ever (250 pounds) that I started working full time and with working full time came me being on my feet for 8+ hours a day so I was getting in steps and burning calories. Then I got promoted and got to be the only person there when people called off. So I ended up being at work for sometimes over 16 hours at a time and I wouldn’t bring any food. Slowly this began to be a daily occurrence. I just wouldn’t eat, then I’d pull a double and sleep when I got home so I’d end up going days without food and I started dropping the weight. Then regulars at work began to notice and make comments. It felt good knowing I looked “better” but I also knew it wasn’t a healthy way to be losing weight.
I started to think. How bad does something you’re struggling with have to get out of hand before you don’t have control of it anymore? I’m conscious enough to know I shouldn’t be doing it. But the rewards are too good to ignore.
I had lost 60 pounds and was loving how I looked. Then life happened and I was out of work for a little. I kept the same eating scheming I had before and I was still losing. I slowly started eating regularly again and…I gained 10 pounds.
I’m working again and I recently haven fallen back into the same habits. Not eating all day but I feel like it’s getting worse.
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