Bi-Sexual Male / 26
Getting Help
It began when I was very young. I’m in therapy for grooming, sexual assault and r**e. I can’t talk about this to my friends and family so sorry don’t read if you’re triggered by the above.
My parents were always working so I was always getting dropped at friends and family’s houses. Some of which had older kids. Some of them showed me porn and so on. Saying the normal lies of you better not tell or you’ll get into trouble. This of course escalated to them touching me or having me touch them. I was still in the single digits when I was encouraged vigorously to give a blow job. He constant told me how good I was and how to it a bit better. He was a teen at the time. He used my mouth at least once a week encouraging me to swallow every time.
This escalated to his friend. His friend was much more intense. He was always touching me. Telling me I was pretty, petting me and even giving me g*fts from porn and comics to g*ft cards and hoodies. He wasn’t poor like me. I actually would ask to play with his dick. I would tell him he had the biggest most manly cock. That kinda talk would earn me points. I learned quickly he liked his balls tugged on not hard but later I found that liked the illusion of heavier balls or something. I complimented his big balls how much bigger he was then mine.
The first boy we will call J hated me talking about my male genitals but it was ok to talk about my butt or hole. C on the other hand liked it as long as it was making me small and him big you come to your conclusions on that.
C was the first to start putting his finger in me. First my mouth then my butt. He would use the lube he stole from his parents. He would tell me how good it felt to him and how good it felt to him. He would go on and on about how amazing I was and beautiful. How liked my hair. My smooth skin and my bubble butt. Once he was able to finger me with three fingers and me not wince. He’d tell me how great it was when I’d relax. For his 16th birthday he put his dick in my butthole. He fucked me till he came inside me. There was only a little blood. J found out and soon he was fucking me too but he made me hold my dentals out of the way so he wouldn’t touch my disgusting little boy parts. They shard me often sometimes even trading off front to back. Did get a guitar and lessons.
I was also sometimes staying at my uncles. He’d have me sit on his lap from a very young age it wasn’t till much later maybe 11 it’s all a little blurry. It started with me licking his finger clean of chocolate apparently how I did it he liked and kept asking me to do it. Escalated to while was sitting on his lap and he’d grind into me. He gave me beer and whiskey and tell me I was a man when I got dizzy. He started jerking off while I sucked his finger and then I just graduated to sucking my uncles cock. I actually started needing and lusting for the attentions C,j and my uncle. I missed the coming Jesus wasnt even a teen yet. They introduced me to green and x.
J started making pluck and keep me skinny. He liked me little and hairless. He’d call me fat and other shit. C and my uncle never did that. I actually got jealous of j when he had a girlfriend. He’d say u was better at blow jobs and that she’d never let him cum in her. All of them would.
No none of them are in jail. My uncle died drunk driving. C went off to Cambridge and j last I heard after he got dishonorably discharged he was living on the streets. If any of this reminds you of your child hood I urge you to seek help and discuss it with a professional. I have questioned everything since I started. My present gf and her partner have been so supportive. They don’t know all this but enough to know I’m really fucked up and they never push. Good luck
My parents were always working so I was always getting dropped at friends and family’s houses. Some of which had older kids. Some of them showed me porn and so on. Saying the normal lies of you better not tell or you’ll get into trouble. This of course escalated to them touching me or having me touch them. I was still in the single digits when I was encouraged vigorously to give a blow job. He constant told me how good I was and how to it a bit better. He was a teen at the time. He used my mouth at least once a week encouraging me to swallow every time.
This escalated to his friend. His friend was much more intense. He was always touching me. Telling me I was pretty, petting me and even giving me g*fts from porn and comics to g*ft cards and hoodies. He wasn’t poor like me. I actually would ask to play with his dick. I would tell him he had the biggest most manly cock. That kinda talk would earn me points. I learned quickly he liked his balls tugged on not hard but later I found that liked the illusion of heavier balls or something. I complimented his big balls how much bigger he was then mine.
The first boy we will call J hated me talking about my male genitals but it was ok to talk about my butt or hole. C on the other hand liked it as long as it was making me small and him big you come to your conclusions on that.
C was the first to start putting his finger in me. First my mouth then my butt. He would use the lube he stole from his parents. He would tell me how good it felt to him and how good it felt to him. He would go on and on about how amazing I was and beautiful. How liked my hair. My smooth skin and my bubble butt. Once he was able to finger me with three fingers and me not wince. He’d tell me how great it was when I’d relax. For his 16th birthday he put his dick in my butthole. He fucked me till he came inside me. There was only a little blood. J found out and soon he was fucking me too but he made me hold my dentals out of the way so he wouldn’t touch my disgusting little boy parts. They shard me often sometimes even trading off front to back. Did get a guitar and lessons.
I was also sometimes staying at my uncles. He’d have me sit on his lap from a very young age it wasn’t till much later maybe 11 it’s all a little blurry. It started with me licking his finger clean of chocolate apparently how I did it he liked and kept asking me to do it. Escalated to while was sitting on his lap and he’d grind into me. He gave me beer and whiskey and tell me I was a man when I got dizzy. He started jerking off while I sucked his finger and then I just graduated to sucking my uncles cock. I actually started needing and lusting for the attentions C,j and my uncle. I missed the coming Jesus wasnt even a teen yet. They introduced me to green and x.
J started making pluck and keep me skinny. He liked me little and hairless. He’d call me fat and other shit. C and my uncle never did that. I actually got jealous of j when he had a girlfriend. He’d say u was better at blow jobs and that she’d never let him cum in her. All of them would.
No none of them are in jail. My uncle died drunk driving. C went off to Cambridge and j last I heard after he got dishonorably discharged he was living on the streets. If any of this reminds you of your child hood I urge you to seek help and discuss it with a professional. I have questioned everything since I started. My present gf and her partner have been so supportive. They don’t know all this but enough to know I’m really fucked up and they never push. Good luck
