I Am Corrupted

I am a old single woman who has issues in life. My husband left me 10 years ago after abusing me for 3 years. I men i tried to date later only cheated me and called my ugly. My daughter called me a whore and left me. In a nutshell i am a total mess.

I was angry frustrated and more importantly hated myself.

For the past two years i have been drinking alcohol sometimes too much. I tried to contact my girl and wish her on her birthday but she called me a whore again and how she does want me to embarrass her family.

It hurt me so much that i drank a lot that day. There is a college guy who stays above my flat and i was frustrated with the loud music he was playing. I walked up to confront him but i something weird happened to me. When he opened the door their were three more boys and i kinda felt aroused watching the handsome lads. I was so much in rage and drunk i kissed the boy and grabbed his dick before i stroke his size two times and left.

I am so embarrassed i have done such an act but i am currently in a turmoil of should i have not come back to my room and let things flow where it could lead to.