Lustful Desire

I have a coworker that over time I have fallen in love with. He knows I like him, and he only wants to be friends, so the only thing left for me is fervent masterbation in the darkness of my room at night. He drives me crazy all day then I pretend I'm fucking him all night. I've even (dangerously) done the deed at work when I can't contain myself any longer. Though it will probably never happen, I dream of the day he would suddenly just start kissing me and we would end with glorious climaxes. I would allow him to do anything to any part of me. Breasts, mouth, vagina, ass, whatever he wanted. Until then I'll have to slake my own list myself....