Ready to reveal your biggest, most juicy sex confession to the World? Well, this is the place!

Did you get totally wasted at Mardi Gras and sleep with a total stranger? Did you have wild sex on vacation in a tropical paradise? Did you end up have sex with a famous celebrity, musician, or athlete? Did you lose your virginity in a strange place? We've all got that one sexual experience we keep closely guarded, but you know how the saying goes.. "you only live once" and right now is the time to let it all out. We're all ears!

First Time BBC

Back when I was young in my twenties, there was an XXX rated movie theater in the next town. I'd sometimes go there to watch porn and sometimes even get a BJ from one of the horny guys.
I did see women there but only on rare occasions; usually it was horny men who'd be at the movies. Straight guys got BJs and gay guys got or gave whatever they wanted.
Anyway, this one night I was in the mood to try something very nasty. I was curious about sucking a dick and decided to give it a try.
I stopped on the way and got myself a 3 pack of condoms and a pint of whiskey. I put the rubbers in my shorts pocket and walked around the block to drink the whiskey. Next I went into the porno theater and found a good spot in the back to watch guys messing around and watch the movies while I got hornier and finally decided to do it.
A black man a little older than I was, maybe he was in his thirties and looked neat and well dressed. He was not threatening and when he asked if I was there for some fun, I said maybe.
We went into a booth and he opened his pants and let them fall to his knees. His boxers came next and then I saw his nice big cut cock and big hairy balls.
He told me to get on my knees and to rub my face on his nuts. I could smell that he was shower clean and I licked and then sucked on his balls. I slipped a condom over his dick and started to try sucking him off. He was liking the feelings my mouth was giving him and he held my head gently and told me to "suck that big black dick baby" and telling me to tell him what I want.
I said I want that dick and he pulled off the condom and said "kiss it; kiss my fat black dick"
I hesitated and he said something like "come on and suck that big dick; you know you want it"
I was afraid of him cumming in my mouth.
Part of me wanted it real bad and part of me was afraid of STDs so I didn't suck him to completion.
I confess that I probably would have sucked him and let him cum in my mouth but after a few minutes of moaning and almost cumming, he pulled his dick out of my mouth and said he didn't want to cum yet because he was only there like an hour and he didn't want to cum too soon.
I sucked quite a few cocks after that and had mine sucked even more often.
There was a blond crossdresser who was kind of pretty and was real slutty and would suck and get fucked by lots of men.
One time I went in a booth with her and was going to let her suck me but I wanted to feel her ass and maybe suck her too. When I lifted her skirt and saw she had no panties on and a nice cut cock half hard, I figured I'd suck her and maybe let her suck me off.
I stopped after a minute because I noticed she smelled bad and I think she must have been fucked in her not prepped asshole and she didn't smell clean at all.
I left the booth and went to another section of the theater and got a good BJ from one of the regulars.
I haven't been to a porn theater or ABS in many years. Was thinking about sucking at the gloryhole but then the pandemic came and I haven't been in a theater since and still worry about STDs or some other things so I just watch internet porn and jack my own.
I still remember that one time I had a nice fat black dick to play with and still think it was very hot.

  • Watched In The Shower

    Years ago, I lived for two summers at my girlfriend's house, while we were home from college. Her mother was divorced and lived alone and was incredibly nice to me, and I tried to take care of things around her home to help when I would stay there. I am still married to her daughter, and I have never admitted this to her or would never want to rock the boat since we have a great marriage. This is the first time I'm telling this to anyone. When I would stay at my now mother in laws house, I would have to get up super early each day to go to work, I worked for a roofing company. I had a routine and each morning I would get up, use the restroom, go down to the kitchen and eat a quick breakfast, return to the bathroom and take a shower and get dressed for work. It was still dark when I would get up and the house was quiet with everyone else there still asleep; it was just my future mother-in-law, and my future wife there. One morning I noticed that the pocket sliding door in the bathroom wasn't completely slid shut and so I shut it before getting into the shower so that the light didn't wake up my mother-in-law, as her bedroom shared that bathroom. I noticed the next day that the door was slightly open again when I walked in and shut it and headed down to make breakfast. When I was back in the shower, I noticed that the door was slightly cracked open a couple inches again? I filed that away in my mind and went on my way. The next time it happened again, I knew it had to be on purpose. I didn't shut it anymore and stood at the sink shaving and looked at the door in the mirror's reflection. My mother in laws bed had a very clear view into the bathroom and I could see her in her bed "sleeping". I also realized that she could see into the shower through the sliding glass door from her bed and her room with the door slightly open too. The thought of being watched as I showered really turned me on, and as I grew hard, I had to stroke myself. The hornier I got thinking of her watching me the more I stroked until I was spraying cum on the glass shower door. This went on for the remainder of the summer, and the next as well. It also progressed to the point that over one Christmas break that I was staying there, I would get up a little later and she would be downstairs in the kitchen, After I ate breakfast I would head upstairs to shower and get dressed, she would too nearly right behind me, and often by the time I finished shaving, I could see her through the slightly open door, sometimes totally nude changing into her workout clothes, or on occasion when it was still really early, masturbating in her bed as I was showering, I still get hard thinking about letting her watch me stroke myself to orgasm and spraying jets of cum on the shower door for her as she watched. It's been many years since, and neither I or her have ever mentioned anything at all about this to each other or anyone else. I do wonder if she ever thinks about watching me after all this time and my mind races to that experience each time, she is around me still.

    Wife Sent A Video Of Me Having Sex With Men

    I’m male, 36, married for ten years and have two young kids. I was out drinking with a friend and his younger brother, it was late so the pub was closing and his younger brother who’s gay said he was going to a well known gay nightclub that was still open and we went along with him to continue drinking.
    The club was great and we sat at a table with a bunch of other guys, my friend and his brother said they were leaving and being really drunk I said I was staying to have another pint with the guys I was with, nothing sinister but I was having a good time and wanted to get more drunk. One guy at the table kept buying me pints of lager and showing me porn, loads of straight porn, cumshot and cream pie stuff on amateur girls, I was getting horny and he kept showing me more.
    I ended up needing to go to the toilet and they guy said to use the girls if I was straight as the guys toilets could be brutal. I said I’d be fine and off I went to the guys toilets, still horny half horny from watching the porn.
    I went up the back of the men’s toilets alone and urinated at a stall, looked to my side and a cubical door was open with two large African guys inside, one was staring at me smiling, took his cock out and let it just hang there, it was huge, about 7 inches soft, really fat, I’ve never seen anything like it, he gestured me over and I walked into the cubical with them steaming drunk.
    He sat me on the toilet seat towards them and locked the door, took a bag and put white powder on the tip of his cock and told me to sniff it, so I did, I thought it was coke but think it was ket, I was instantly out of it but still aware of everything, the bass from the music was going through me making me feel weird and he told me to lick the rest off his cock and fed it into my mouth. I remember holding it and sucking all over his huge bellend while he held my head, i was a total slut sucking his huge cock and sucking and licking his balls while the other watched. Before I knew what was happening he was solid and holding my head pushing into my throat choking me, it was agony, I felt it literally pop past my throat, it felt like it was ripping it apart and going deep down my throat, the more I struggled the more I was held and the harder and deeper he fucked into my throat, I couldn’t breath then he finally took it out and came all over my face.
    I was gasping for air but started playing with his huge sloppy cock with my hands and squeezing his balls and bellend milking every last drop and then licking the tip of his bellend. His friend stood in front and guided my head to his cock, I gladly opened and held his balls sucking his bellend, he let me do what I wanted this time.
    I sucked his cock and balls with my face covered in cum, licked all over his balls then took him in my mouth again wanking him like a slut untill he held my head and came over my face.
    I was so drunk and out it from whatever the powder was I let them walk me out, face covered in two loads of cum in front of a nightclub full of people, I must have looked like a total mess, they had a car outside a few streets away and they drove me to a flat, there was another 3 African guys there and I remember them laughing at me face covered in cum just standing there. They took me into a shoddy bedroom in a tenement the first guy sat on a chair took the white powder out and placed it on his cock again, I kneeled in front of him, held his huge soft cock, sniffed it all off then licked it clean, took him in my mouth and started basically worshiping his cock, he let it get huge and as hard as it can get then stood up stripped me naked and put me on the bed bent over doggy, he put a rag of poppers over my face and the room started spinning, I felt him slide inside of me and I think he made me cum instantly, I remember whimpering “your in, your in” and he just went and hate fucked me, someone else came in front of me and put his cock in my mouth, I opened up more for both of them. I was getting spitroasted by two huge African cocks around 9 inches each and fat and I mean they were completely ruining me and I was just taking it, others in the room laughing and waiting there turn.
    It never once came into my mind they were waving a phone in my face, they took my phone from my pocket. My wife is saved under babes M then in brackets wife mobile. They sent her video messages of it happening and FaceTimed her. Videos of me getting spitroasted at the start till the guy behind cums and I’m asking him to do it. Then someone else in the room comes over and started to fuck me while still sucking the one in front of me. I’m on camera bent over deepthroating a cock till it cums down my throat and I’m choking with my head he’s there getting fucked from behind groaning in pleasure. And there was FaceTime videos made on the night too so she actually watched it live at times.
    5 people gangbanged me and not one used a condom. She hasn’t brought it up yet.

  • I Got A Little Taste

    I had my girl very young and raised her as a single parent with some help. I'm so proud to see her go to college and not follow in my footsteps completely. She did get the party genes from me though.

    I invited her and her boyfriend over for the long weekend, just wanted to spend some time together. Many drinks later, they go upstairs because they were "tired" from the long drive. I'm sure you already know what that means.

    I couldn't see anything but the sounds i heard. She was definitely sucking some cock then got fucked. A minute later, she obviously came.

    I was rubbing myself on the couch because i couldn't get it out of my head when suddenly he appeared. He said he just came down to get water. We talked and next thing we knew, he's eating me out and making me cum like my girl. He's good.

    Then something sparked in me again. I sat him on the couch, grabbed his cock out, and rode him until he came deep in me. It was certainly a mistake but also great knowing that my girl never rode him like that. Guess I still got it.

    I don't think he ever said a word because life went on as usual.

    High School Crush At Reunion

    I had always had a crush on Robyn since middle school, but she wasn't interested.  


    Robyn was absolutely beautiful.  Tall & brunette with sparkling blue eyes. 


    Even in high school, she not only wasn't interested, but she would do her best to embarrass me by telling her friends what a loser I was.  


    I finally gave up.  After high school, we obviously didn't keep in touch.


    Twenty years later, I decided to attend our high school reunion.  As fate would have it, there was Robyn.  Still beautiful, but obviously older like everyone.  I wasn't going to say anything to her due to the way she treated me back in high school.


    After a while, she came up to me.  Within a few minutes, I learned she was married & had 5 children.  She was living in another state, but really wanted to reconnect with some old friends.  Her husband stayed home to watch the kids.  She was mainly a stay at home mom, but she was a choir director & volunteered at her church.


    I told her I was single, never married, & no kids.  I lived locally.  I founded and sold a couple companies & was between things at the moment.


    Over dinner, she ignored everyone else at our table quite rudely, but just focused on talking to me. 


    Then she asked me more about my companies.  I told her they were tech companies, but the details would probably bore her.  Then she asked what I knew she really wanted to know.  How much money did I make from selling them?  


    I told her it was kind of embarrassing to talk about.  She persisted in knowing.  So, I told her.  The first one for 7-figures & the second one for 8-figures.  She was astonished.  She had to think for a moment:  You means millions & over ten million?  Yes.  That's right.  She said I must be joking.  I said I don't like fo brag.  I don't flaunt my wealth.


    She asked if we could have a drink.  We had several.  She was blowing off all her old friends she came to the reunion to see.


    After a couple of drinks, Robyn revealed she felt totally overwhelmed as a wife & mother.  Her husband & her were fighting all the time.  Taking care of the kids was absolutely exhausting.  Then, she revealed something extremely personal:  Her sex life was in a shambles.


    I told her that I was sorry she was so unhappy.  I told her there was a time back in school when I wanted nothing more than to be with her, but after the way she treated me, that time had passed.


    She said she totally understood.  She said it had been a mistake to dump all her problems on me.


    I told her no.  I appreciated her honesty.  


    I offered her a ride to her hotel & she accepted.


    Robyn asked if I wanted to come up to her room.  I accepted without hesitation.


    As soon as we got to her room, I took her into me arms & kissed her passionately.  I pushed her against the wall.  She was wearing a hot pink dress that fell to her mid thigh.  I reached around her back & unzipped it.  It fell to the floor.  She was wearing a matching silk & lace bra & bikini cut panties.


    I picked her up and carried her to the bed.  She didn't say a word.  She took off her C cup bra.  I slid off her panties.  I took off my clothes.  I had condoms just in case of a situation like this, but then I decided I wanted to cum in this high school dick tease.


    I began to fuck her as she immediately moaned.  I talked dirty to her & she loved it.  I fucked harder.  I got her into position for doggie style as I thrust savagely, mercilessly.  She screamed.  I felt more & more like I was hate fucking her for all the times she had rejected me in high school.


    Finally, I fucked her in the missionary position & looked deep in her eyes as I exploded deep inside her like a volcano exploding.  She exclaimed, "Oh God!  I'm not on the pill."  I assured her things would be alright, but she was freaking out.  I calmed her down.  Honestly, her emotional pain & discomfort, that I inflicted on purpose, turned me on.


    It was arguably the most satisfying sex I ever had.


    Afterwards, she said she would like to keep in touch.  I told her we could. 


    And we did.  About once every month or two, I would fly to her city & we would meet in a hotel for the kind of sex her husband was unwilling or incapable of giving her.


    She talked about leaving him for me, but I firmly told her I didn't want to be a stepdad.  She understood, even if she was disappointed.


    I finally had my high school crush Robyn, on my terms.

  • Sister’s Friend

    My sister was 20 and going to college. She had an apartment with her friend Jaime. She went to college as well. I stayed with them every chance I could when I was 14. They always had guys over. I’ve heard them both have sex many times. Seen some things too. I’ve walked in on both having sex many times as well. I know for a fact many of those guys fucked them both. Especially their boyfriends. When my sister would leave in the morning, her boyfriend would fuck her friend before he left. Her friend’s boyfriend would come over when she was at work to fuck my sister. She would always tell me not to tell her he came by. So many stories about them to tell. But this is about me. Well, me and her friend.

    So, one night I’m alone with her friend. She’s been drinking and we’re watching TV on the couch. It’s midnight. I lay on the couch and cover up with a blanket. She wants to lay with me. We’re lying on our sides under the blanket. Only so much room on a couch. So her ass is right against my crotch. We watch the movie then she tells me to hold her. She pulls my arm around her and holds it against her body. A few minutes later I realize my hand is under her shirt. She says my hand is cold. Her body was very warm. I pull it out from under but she says it fine. I put it back and notice she’s holding her shirt up for me. My hard on begins to grow. I can feel it poking her. She scoots back and I move my hand between her ass and my hard on. She asks what’s wrong. I just tell her the truth. I didn’t want to poke her with my dick. She says to let it poke her. She tells me she wants it to poke her. She grabs my hand again and puts it under her shirt. Directly on her tits. I’m cupping one in my hand when she scoots all the way into me. She begins to grind against me. I slip my hand down to her shorts. I hold her pussy while she grinds. She lifts her waistband and my hand slides to her pussy. I finger her until she pulls her shorts and panties off. She pulls my dick out and tells me to fuck her. She does everything. She puts it in her. She grinds on it when it’s in her. I cum very fast once it’s in her.

    We lay there for a few minutes. She’s kissing on me. Rubbing on me. I’m just holding her. She feels me getting hard again. She grabs it and strokes it slowly. She tells me that I have a man’s dick while she strokes it. Then she asks if it’s ever been sucked. I tell her no. She gets down on her knees in front of the couch. I’m still laying down. She kisses down my body to my dick. She puts her mouth on it and sucks on it. A few seconds later she tells me to put my hand on her head. I sit up and she’s between my legs now. My hand is on top of her head guiding her. Making it go up and down on my dick. I’m about to cum. So, I grab her head with both hands and hold it on my dick. It felt so good to cum in her mouth. I sit back on the couch. She sucks it dry.

    We go into the room after that and continue to have sex. That was the first night of our sex adventures. We did it a lot after that. The stories I could tell.

    First Swallow

    Back when Craigslist ads were just starting, I started checking out the personal ads. I started answering some the men 4 men ads out of curiosity. I had experimented with my buddy in my early teens with swapping oral but it always ended up with both of us just jacking our loads into a t-shirt or sock.
    One day I decided to meet up with a guy from the ad for him to give me a BJ. It was the middle of the day and he was on his lunch break. I went to his house and he had me lay down on his bed while he sucked me off. I offered to try to suck him as well but he wasn't interested.
    A couple of weeks later I met up with a guy who was remodeling a house for a friend. The house was way out in the country and when I pulled up he was sitting in his truck waiting for me. We went inside and he showed me some of the things he had been doing.
    When we entered the kitchen area he turned to me and said "well are we doing this?" I replied sure, and started to drop my shorts. When he undid his, I noticed we wasn't wearing any underwear. A nice thick but half hard cock was just hanging there. I reached out and started feeling it up. I started stroking it as he reached over and started to return the favor.
    After a little bit of feeling each other up, he reached up and put his hand on my shoulder and guided me down to my knees. "you know you want to suck it," he said, '"that's what you're here for" I placed the thick head in my mouth and started to slide it in and out of my mouth, taking my time to enjoy the feeling and taste. I slowly went all the way down on it until it was all the way down my throat.
    When I hit bottom he let out a big moan and placed both his hands on the back of my head and started thrusting his hips. I was gagging and choking like crazy at first but then got it under control. I could feel his load start to build up and was trying to back up but he pushed my head all the way down on his cock and unloaded what seemed to be a gallon of hot cum. While I hadn't planned on it, I had just swallowed my first load.
    His cock instantly shrank back to normal and he zipped up and said "gotta go now". I stood there with my cock in my hand and gave him a look to which he replied, "naw man, I'm all about my cock and load, thanks!" I zipped up and left.
    On my way home, the other guy who had sucked me off before sent me a message so I went to his place and dumped my load down his throat.
    While I was kinda disappointed at the time, I fantasize about the meeting from time to time. It was the first of many loads to cum!

    Taboo: Army ROTC Cadet & Officer

    I met Kristin after I had recently returned from a tour along the DMZ (Demilitarized Zone) in Korea.  She was a US Army ROTC (Reserve Officer Training Corps) cadet in college & I was a junior officer in the US Army.  Basically, she was training to be an officer in addition to her normal college studies.  I was about 5 years older than her when we met.

    This was before the time of dating apps, so you usually had to actually meet people face to face.  Even though she had a ROTC scholarship, she worked a part-time job to make extra money.  That's where we met.  I had to file some paperwork & she helped me.  

    She was absolutely beautiful with an infectious smile.  Tall, brown hair, & blue eyes.  As we finished our business, I asked for her contact information.  She grinned & asked if I was interested professionally or personally?  She took her work business card & wrote her personal cell phone number on the back.  

    I didn't want to seem desperate, so I waited a few days to call.  She was excited to hear from me.  We made plans for dinner.

    She wore a sexy bright green dress to dinner.  The dress went to mid thigh with thin straps.  She certainly stood out from the crowd & quite honestly was the center of attention.

    We made small talk, but we both knew it wasn't illegal for a ROTC cadet to date an officer she didn't work for, but it certainly was quite taboo.  Before long we were flirting.  The sexual tension was palpable.  The flirting rose to another level.  I felt like I had to have her.

    We went dancing at a club.  She was all over me from the start.  She was grinding on me in her sexy green dress.  I was so turned on that it felt like torture.  My hands were all over her body from her tight ass to her C cup breasts.

    She whispered in my ear, meet me in the women's bathroom in 2 minutes.  

    I followed her lead.  I went inside and nobody was in there except for us, but that could change any moment.

    She took my hand & we entered a bathroom stall.  She locked the door.  We kissed for the first time. It was passionate as her tongue sought out mine.

    I pushed her so I could see her back and unzipped the dress down to her waist.  She was wearing a white lace bra.  I pulled the breasts out of the cups of her bra & felt her nipples hardening.  I hiked up her dress to her waist revealing white lace boyshorts. I whispered in her ear, "Is this what you want?"  She said, "Fucking give it to me."

    I pulled her boy shorts down to her knees.  I had brought condoms, but in the heat if the moment, I decided not to bother with them.  

    That's when a couple women entered the bathroom.  We were committed.  No stopping now.

    I fucked her slow at first.  She looked back over her shoulder.  I began to fuck her harder.  I wanted her so bad.  I began to fuck her savagely, mercilessly.  She did her best not to make any noise, but she was breathing heavy & lightly moaning.

    I told her to sit down on the toilet.  Then I shot my load all over her breasts & bra.  She looked up at me with an impish grin as she used her fingers to run through my cum on her chest & lick it off with her tongue.

    It was a quickie that merely lasted 2 or 3 minutes from the time we kissed until I came on her.

    We made an awkward exit from the bathroom & then I drove her home.

    She invited me into her apartment & we proceeded to pick up from where we left off.  This time, there was nothing holding us back.  I took off her dress, her bra, & her boyshorts until she was totally naked.  She started by going down on me.  She screamed as I took her doggie style.  Moaned as she rode me.  I came again, but this time on her stomach as we finished in the missionary position.

    After that first date, there were many more.  We got serious, but she was finishing college & was moving away to start her own military career.  We decided to take a break & see what life might have in store.

    About 6 months later, she called me crying.  She was pregnant with the baby of a guy she barely knew.  She didn't want to have an abortion, but she also didn't want to marry a guy she barely knew just because of the pregnancy.

    Well, in the end, she had the baby & married the guy.  I feel like her & I had a future together, but things worked out differently.  I stopped communicating with her after the wedding.  What happened next, I don't know.  All I know is that it felt like a wasted opportunity for both of us.

    Younger Women Part Two

    Having previously posted about Kate, a woman that I have known since she was in her teens, as mentioned previously there are ' others ' though most recent was Bobbi 32 years old, when she arrived in the pub, short skirt, high heels, bare legs tight fitting top, all the males including yours truly immediately became interested, and they were round her like flies at a cesspit, I didn't blame them, oh she was sexy as, believe me.

    After a while she came up to me and asked me if I could play anything from the courteneer's I replied no problem and played a couple of their tracks, she then asked me to play what ever I had of Alan Jackson, so I played Little Bitty and Don;t Rock The Jukebox, she then asked me to play Hot Chocolate - Everyone's A Winner, which I also played.

    A short while later, she came up to the DJ Booth and asked me if I had any Warren Zeigler, and said if you have can you play it and I will get my tits out and you can feel them, I replied that I have two of his album's, but initially that went way over her head. Anyway I played one of his most popular tracks, sure enough, up she came to the DJ Booth and lifted her top, revealing her bare tits saying go on them give them a good feel, and unashamedly I did, she had a nice handful, then she said to me what did you mean that you had a whole album ? I said I was only joking regarding the innuendo, because I knew that I had two albums of his, but if you must know it was a bit tongue in cheek meaning if I played just one track I was getting a feel of your tits, what would I get if I played a whole album ?

    She looked me straight in the eye, called me a randy old sod, and then said play some more and you can take me home and see the rest of me. Now at this point, I did not really imagine she was serious, but I played some more of his tracks anyway, and she got up and danced to them but said no more, about 10 minutes before I finished she came up to me handed me a piece of paper, it had her address and phone number on it, underlined was the message phone me asap Bobbi.

    When I had finished up and locked the DJ Booth down, I thought what the hell and phoned her, when she answered she simply said, I'm outside waiting on you, and when I left the pub, sure enough Bobbi was standing just up from the pub door, and she walked towards me and said to me right big guy take me home, so I did , I spent the night, she made me breakfast, the sex was fantastic, she certainly knew how to please a man, and did most of the work ( Cowgirl style ) only goin onto her back so I could ' come deep inside her ' fact is I nearly came when became naked, now that was 3 weeks ago and there's no sign that she wants to stop, the great thing about her is the dark triangle of pubic hair between her legs, tbh shaved women are a turn off, so I'm sure glad that shes not.

  • My Not So Perfect Life

    I was a teen model, for JC Penny's. By the time I was seventeen I was too tall and lanky and they didn't need me. Fourteen was the ideal age. The photographer was a woman, and she took hundreds of nude pictures of me. She brought me around to making love with her.

    I was 19 and walked out of a restaurant, a commercial photographer asked if I minded posing for him at the door. That photograph was used for their summer advertising. It's that photo that attracted a man's attention and he looked me up. He was enthralled with me, and after a couple of meetings offered to pay my way through college.

    Of course nothing is free, and I was his, and am, his girlfriend. When I need to feel good about myself I look through my nude photos. I like how I was then. I'm not at all like I was at that time. He doesn't know about those photographs, he has his own that he takes from time to time.

    Sometimes when he is traveling I use a dating app to meet up with women, or go to that part of town. That part of me he doesn't know about, much less how much I need to spend the night with a woman my age.