Straight Male / 32
Ashamed
Being faithful is tough, especially when things turn out to be long distance. I have never been a stud but my father wasn’t ugly himself either. For a long time I used to think that as a man if you wanted girls you have to be super handsome and built like a machine. Glad I found out that is not true. During college is when I really started to figure things out. A good amount of confidence, hygiene, and good humor or attitude will attract the right attention.
I met her my fourth year of college when I was still dating around but I just couldn’t see myself be with anyone else but her. Her humor her wonderful smile and her caring attitude. I dropped everything and decided to man up and go after her and have had the best time of my life with her. She’s so special and I can’t help but make sure she’s always treated right.
I graduated early with a good job and was distanced from her for a bit as she finished graduate school in a different school in the state. Our bond was still strong but I couldn’t take my addiction of lust off of my mind. I hate myself for it and I battle these terrible thoughts everyday. The urge to pleasure myself but I broke. I resorted to drinking to try and break these thoughts.
I was going through a rough patch in my life with family, friends, and even her. Like a demon waiting to strike I get a late message but it wasn’t from her. It was a young girl I had only met a few times in my old neighborhood before moving out. I had never met her parents and had forgotten I gave her my number a few years back. She tells me she remembers me and begins flirting with me telling me she’s about to turn 18 in a few days.
Before long I’m at her grandmothers small estate that same night waiting for her to walk out. We knew what we both wanted. I take a good luck at her and notice she’s wearing a silky sleeping gown. There are no lights around, it’s pitch black outside we can barely see our faces. The house is far back behind a line of dense trees. We hug and I can’t contain myself and lean in for her lips. I move my hands to her ass and start feeling her warm wet pussy when I feel only her skin underneath her gown.
Before long it’s heavy breathing both of us on the grass, pure raw unprotected sex in the middle of the night. I’m holding her hair as her hands dig into the grass and bouncing her pussy up and down my cock. The moonlight is glistening now and I notice a bit more of her, light brown skin and a huge ass. She’s a bit on the bigger size for her age but her waist is slim. I demand she tells me about her sex life. She tells me she’s been fucking someone close to her. Walking into his room when his mother is showering. I ask her if she’s the one who initiated. She tells me no but that she’s always been a slut. Sucking men off when no one is home. Lusting after her brothers friends when he is out with his gf. Fucking her uncle behind her boyfriends back. I dig into her pussy deeper I am rock hard and ask where her parents are at now? She tells me her mom and uncle are away together presumably fucking underneath her grandmothers nose. I reach my climax and come to my senses and shoot my load into a patch of grass.
We get up both exhausted from the humidity of the night. Tumbling over some gravel. She tells me thank you for tonight. And walks back home trying to catch her balance from the low visibility. I drive off.
When I get home the recollection of my past hits me rough. I breakdown, I have defiled my integrity as a man for a few minutes of pleasure with a girl I barely knew. I feel like a coward knowing everything could have been avoided. I cry in silence knowing I will never be able to make up for what I had done. Realization hits me, no one has to know. I clean myself up and sleep it off.
To this day no one knows, I distanced myself and never spoke to this young girl again. I take it as a second chance and learn from my mistakes. I’m not engaged or married so try to reason with my thoughts. I have been better since but I know that if one day it is made known to her it could end what we have going.
I met her my fourth year of college when I was still dating around but I just couldn’t see myself be with anyone else but her. Her humor her wonderful smile and her caring attitude. I dropped everything and decided to man up and go after her and have had the best time of my life with her. She’s so special and I can’t help but make sure she’s always treated right.
I graduated early with a good job and was distanced from her for a bit as she finished graduate school in a different school in the state. Our bond was still strong but I couldn’t take my addiction of lust off of my mind. I hate myself for it and I battle these terrible thoughts everyday. The urge to pleasure myself but I broke. I resorted to drinking to try and break these thoughts.
I was going through a rough patch in my life with family, friends, and even her. Like a demon waiting to strike I get a late message but it wasn’t from her. It was a young girl I had only met a few times in my old neighborhood before moving out. I had never met her parents and had forgotten I gave her my number a few years back. She tells me she remembers me and begins flirting with me telling me she’s about to turn 18 in a few days.
Before long I’m at her grandmothers small estate that same night waiting for her to walk out. We knew what we both wanted. I take a good luck at her and notice she’s wearing a silky sleeping gown. There are no lights around, it’s pitch black outside we can barely see our faces. The house is far back behind a line of dense trees. We hug and I can’t contain myself and lean in for her lips. I move my hands to her ass and start feeling her warm wet pussy when I feel only her skin underneath her gown.
Before long it’s heavy breathing both of us on the grass, pure raw unprotected sex in the middle of the night. I’m holding her hair as her hands dig into the grass and bouncing her pussy up and down my cock. The moonlight is glistening now and I notice a bit more of her, light brown skin and a huge ass. She’s a bit on the bigger size for her age but her waist is slim. I demand she tells me about her sex life. She tells me she’s been fucking someone close to her. Walking into his room when his mother is showering. I ask her if she’s the one who initiated. She tells me no but that she’s always been a slut. Sucking men off when no one is home. Lusting after her brothers friends when he is out with his gf. Fucking her uncle behind her boyfriends back. I dig into her pussy deeper I am rock hard and ask where her parents are at now? She tells me her mom and uncle are away together presumably fucking underneath her grandmothers nose. I reach my climax and come to my senses and shoot my load into a patch of grass.
We get up both exhausted from the humidity of the night. Tumbling over some gravel. She tells me thank you for tonight. And walks back home trying to catch her balance from the low visibility. I drive off.
When I get home the recollection of my past hits me rough. I breakdown, I have defiled my integrity as a man for a few minutes of pleasure with a girl I barely knew. I feel like a coward knowing everything could have been avoided. I cry in silence knowing I will never be able to make up for what I had done. Realization hits me, no one has to know. I clean myself up and sleep it off.
To this day no one knows, I distanced myself and never spoke to this young girl again. I take it as a second chance and learn from my mistakes. I’m not engaged or married so try to reason with my thoughts. I have been better since but I know that if one day it is made known to her it could end what we have going.
