Coming out of the closet is never an easy thing to do. Where you forced out by an unfortunate circumstance? Did you come out on your own terms. What and how did you finally come out? To who?

Always, Always, Loving What I Was Born To Love

I suffered from sexual anxiety. Always uncomfortable with the topic, didn't see it, read it, talk about it. When it was time for college I chose a 'safe' place, a small college , a super high school as my father called it, where I studied Art Appreciation.

In my junior year I went on a trip to Europe organized by the school, 'The Capitals', Rome, Paris, Amsterdam, London. Three weeks. My roommate for the trip, a senior, as Beverly from upstate New York. Beverly had a mouth on her, talked incessantly about this girl, how she had 'broken up' with her and 'just walked out on her'.

Beverly did not like the 'bush' on me, and insisted on 'taming the wild', with scissors and a razor, until I was picture perfect and she landed a kiss, with tongue, on my freshly shaved intimate parts. It shocked me, I stumbled out of the bathroom, she caught me, held me down on the bed, pushing down, while opening my legs from the knees, and licking me from back to front, and front to back.

Beverly perverted me on that trip. By the time we landed at La Guardia we hadn't just made out, we had slept naked, licked clit, fingered, and played tit for tat. In three short weeks I had done what I never thought about, and came home promising to move in with her.

It lasted until she graduated, by then I had done what needed to get done, and moved on. Beverly and me were too much alike. I had discovered, among other things, I was naturally born lesbian, and a dyke at that.

I had sex with a guy, not invited, but 'used' for the purpose intended. Friends with benefits didn't quite cover it, I never 'gave in' willingly, I just gave in, 'get it over with'. After college we gravitated to each other, got married out of habit, had two kids.

But like Beverly, who is still my BFF, I can't help scoping out the girls. It's in my blood, and making out, some tit for tat, a kiss down there with tongue, makes for a morning workout with that girl from the gym.

  • My Secret Interests..

    I'll try to keep this concise. I'm 24 y.o virgin & I've never been in a relationship. Primarily I identify as a straight male but recently I've been reading up on some segs positive stuff & have been feeling a growing interest in exploring intimacy & pleasure in different forms. Apart from my primary interest in females I've also been feeling attracted by same-segs exploration & cucko couples. Although there have been many times when I've felt overwhelmed by these recurring thoughts as I tend to overthink to understand my desires & thoughts from different perspectives. The intent is to not get carried away by the heat of these things & act with a clearer mindset. If I choose to engage, I want these experiences to be passionate & meaningful. Something that the participants are fulfilled & happy with after it's done. But I also get worried about my future thinking that I should focus more on pursuing goals & making achievements. And that these things might not be the best thing to do at this point of time. That I might get too caught up & do these things more often as they likely bring a great deal of pleasure. I don't want to have a high body count. I want to be sexually confident and explore my personality but I also want to be mindful & purposeful. Any suggestions or opinions are welcome.

    I Managed To Avoid A Man In My Life Until I Met Anne

    I'm a lawyer now. I studied dance in my undergraduate and danced professionally for a couple of years. I have always been a body sculpture lady and have always maintained a very sleek physique. I was asked to pose for a series of nude dancer pictures which I did. I have a couple of 8X10 photographs in my house. I don't have a hang-up with being nude, or that some guest sees me as God created me, down to my vaginal lips.

    I should also state that I lean very much to being in love with a woman who appreciates the work I put into staying slim and tight, and expects me to offer her a smooth experience. I went to law school and have worked corporate law. I was GC at a small corporation where I met Anne, a 35 year old tax director. What Anne had is that je ne sais quoi, a smart and unapologetic assertive woman. We got along fine, and she was very enthralled with my photographs, which led her to explore first hand.

    She is married to a 55 year old man. He is a man that can make you cry inside. She married him when she was 22 before she understood what assertive meant. He treats her as a child, even now that she is 35. It bothers me, but she takes it in stride. Her desires and ambitions exist because he opened the doors for her to climb the corporate ladder. He has no qualms in putting her where 'she belongs', right under him. She says to me, she likes him being strong. I shake my head back and forth. But in these things it is impossible to understand how a well educated lesbian woman can be married to a such a man.

    I invited her to dinner at my place, so that we could have some fun. She brought him along. He took over the conversation and gave me suggestion after suggestion as to how I could fix up my place, he thought my photographs were trash, and I ended up upside under him after desert. He took his sweet time. I was completely trapped under him. I expected them to spend the night, but he begged off and told US to have a good time.

    My life after him has not been the same. I'm quite capable of fending for myself. But that doesn't sit well with him, if I'm Anne's friend then I'm his friend too. And that means that like Anne I have to adjust my thinking and feelings to what he deems to be the right attitude and behavior. He doesn't interfere between me and Anne. As much time as we need to explore and get to know each other better is fine with him. Only, one little thing, he put me on notice not to hurt Anne. We sit an outside table at the wine bar, waiting to see him walk up and take us to dinner.

  • I Outed Myself…big Time

    My wife and I were recently at a weekend bbq with our 50-something aged friends. This was mostly a girlfriends group and while the husbands knew each other, we were not good friends for the most part. The evening bbq turned into late night drinking and some weed smoking. Now by way of background, you need to know I have strong bisexual desires that my wife knows about and helps to satisfy using a strapon dildo. My desires get amplified and my inhibitions almost disappear with alcohol and weed. I’d been with guys before marriage, but since being married my bi activity has been private between my wife and I.

    At some point late in the evening, a group debate was initiated between the husbands and wives about the waning number of blowjobs with age. Guys were basically saying “we used to get blowjobs…we need blowjobs” and the ladies were mostly saying “nah…we’re done”. One of the guys, Shane, says “hell, I’d even take head from a guy”.

    I look at my wife and she gives me the open hands and a look and a shrug, like “it’s up to you”. So before I realize what I’m saying, I hear myself say “I’m a guy”. Everyone laughs and gets a kick out of it until I drop to my knees in front of Shane. Now everyone is whooping it up and laughing. Someone says to Shane “he’s calling your bluff dude”. Shane was like “what the fuck” but he unzipped and pulled it out. I took him in my mouth with everyone cheering me on and proceeded to blow him good until he came in my mouth accompanied by an eruption of cheers and applause. Then one of the wives who was done with bjs says to her husband “go ahead, I know you want to”. So Ted steps up and I suck him and get him off too.

    There were 7 other guys there besides me that night and I blew 3 of them. Two of the other 4 approached me privately days later and I blew them too. Now I suck these guys off on a regular basis. We even have poker night that turns into gay sex night and it doesn’t stop at blowjobs. I’ve gotten some ribbing from the folks who were there that night, but we established a “what happens here stays here policy” . I know, that won’t hold, but so far nobody else has said anything. Honestly I’m embarrassed but really excited too. It was not only fun to give head and take loads but putting on a show was exciting. I think I’m a bit of an exhibitionist.

    My wife still straps it on and addresses my needs in addition to our great straight sex, which I love, but I like getting cock on the side too.

    My Inner Slut Came Out

    My wife and I were at a party with our 50-something aged friends recently and we stayed late, partaking in a lot of drinking and weed. Now for background, my wife knows of my bisexual desires and she indulges my needs using a strapon I suck and get fucked (as an alternative to taking the real thing). For some reason the late night conversation turned to wives no longer giving husbands head. I good naturedly teased a couple wives that they were not pleasuring their husbands. One of them said “smelly cock, gagging deepthroat, disgusting cum in your mouth….you think it’s so great…you try it”. I glanced at my wife who sort of spread her hands and shrugged her shoulders giving me a sort of “it’s up to you” message. I looked at the woman, and fueled by weed and booze, I said “ok”,

    Now that got everyone’s attention and people were laughing until realizing, as I dropped to my knees, I was serious. None of the guys moved. My wife broke the ice by grabbing a cooked but uneaten hot dog and using me for a mock cock-sucking. That let everyone know that this was real and that she knew. So for the next half hour, I blew 4 of the 8 guys and they came in my mouth as everyone looked on and cheered. I was in gay-fantasy-exhibitionist heaven. When I was done, one of the other four stepped up and I blew him too.

    Although I was embarrassed the next morning, it turns out the wives are fine if I blow their husbands, and my wife is ok too. Now I blow all these guys privately, and sonetimes in a group, including the ones who held out that night.

  • Gave My (Unaware) Father-in-law A BJ

    I am Bisexual and nobody knows, not even my wife. A while back I was at an adult bookstore that had glory-holes in the viewing booths. I was looking thru the Porn tapes they had for sale…All of a sudden, I look up and see my father-in-law walk into the store. He went to the cashier to buy some viewing coins. I ducked down and went into the viewing room. It is very dimly lit with about 15 viewing booths.I hid in the corner, and when I saw him walk in, and went into one of the booths.I quickly entered the booth beside him. On entering, I rub my fingers on the hole in the wall connecting the booths…Then I see a cock stick thru the hole. I immediately started to lick the tip, then took the whole thing in my mouth. After sucking and liking for a couple minutes I could feel the head of his cock start to swell in my mouth, and then a stream of cum shot in my mouth…I swallowed it all. We are together for Thanksgiving and Xmas, I think to myself. “If you only knew”

    Becoming A Dirty Old Man

    I'm embarrassed to admit that as I get older and my wife's appetite for sex has waned I still think about the nasty desires and want to try some m2m again for the first time in many years.
    I find that I like all the smells and tastes and it's exciting to be such a dirty nasty pig and just do it for fun with no commitments and no lovey doves stuff just raw sex and slick salty semen.
    I confess to wanting a man's dick in my mouth and his sweaty stinky balls on my nose and I'm looking at his puckered asshole and can't wait to slide my tongue all up that crack and push my tongue in his boy hole.

    Married With Benefits

    I got pretty drunk in college and woke up in a guy's bed. I was naked. And still wet.

    I vomited on myself and he cleaned me up.

    I never really was successful in shutting him down and after graduation I followed him. I got a job with the help of a professor. He got a job with a referral from a friend. We lived apart as we had in college, but nothing happened he wasn't aware of.

    Things got dicey when he took a girl to the beach for a weekend. It was typically male, if I didn't step up with him, he was getting it from another girl. I married him.

    Marriage was stressful, next to impossible. We separated and he moved in that girl. Over time I created my own people, and I met Michelle who introduced me to dancing with a girl. After a few months she moved in with me. When he found out he said he would file for divorce, but I begged him not to.

    Five years later I slept with him again after a get together at my place. Michelle threw a tantrum about it. The result was my son, Nathan. With Nathan, my husband followed.

    I live with my husband and my son. His girlfriend lives elsewhere. Michelle lives nearby to me. From time to time, if Michelle sits close to me, or a goodnight kiss is longer than usual, my husband frowns at me.

    Thrown Alone Into The Wolf's Den I Now Have A Partner To Hold My Hand

    I went to law school to make a difference. I never expected to wake up pregnant. I hate being under a microscope about my behavior. After birth I hired a night nurse, he hired a night nurse. She came up pregnant, same baby daddy. No one told me that any fertile female in the house is open season. The last few months have forced me to confront what I believed was social rhetoric, I didn't believe it was real.

    I'm not excusing what has happened to me, an overbearing male is an overbearing male. Rather than fight my competition for male resources we've made a pact to pursue them together. She's showing now, an unmistakable baby bump and I can't keep my hands away from her. My baby's little brother.

    What happens behind closed doors becomes obvious when you become a mother. Now that one baby's in the stroller and the next baby is in the oven I can't focus on working, other than taking care of my baby and wasting the day away with the other mother. If this is God's plan to teach us a lesson, or fortuitous fortune to be paired at the hip with her, we cannot understand how we've been brought together.

    One day perhaps, some day in the future, we'll see this happening as normal. Adjusted to life together, making more babies, and washing dishes. I feared nightfall beside a man alone at his disposal. We now share our burden together.

  • I'm At That Point That I Would Like To Go Physical

    I won't bore you with why or any of that. Early on I liked hanging around the guys who played rugby, I had a job in the athletic department doing laundry, socks and jock straps and towels. The rugby players were all physically fit, with hairy backs and legs and dicks. I never told anyone that I liked picking up the towels and jock straps when the guys had showered.

    My secret is mine. I have a few pictures that I had collected, I like holding them and admiring those dicks. Some web sites I've enjoyed. When watching a video I gravitate to the man on the bottom, not so much to the man on the top. I began to fantasize for some time that I would like to experience a man on my back. A man much like the guys I remember from being the towel boy in college.

    I volunteer at the Y in the morning, I'm the towel guy, which allows me to hang around the showers. Mostly runners which I enjoy their physique. I don't know how to advertise that I'm available to opening a relationship. And for that matter, how to transition from conversation to something physical. Do I just say I would like to suck their dick?

    Sorry to sound crazy about this.