I'm At That Point That I Would Like To Go Physical

I won't bore you with why or any of that. Early on I liked hanging around the guys who played rugby, I had a job in the athletic department doing laundry, socks and jock straps and towels. The rugby players were all physically fit, with hairy backs and legs and dicks. I never told anyone that I liked picking up the towels and jock straps when the guys had showered.

My secret is mine. I have a few pictures that I had collected, I like holding them and admiring those dicks. Some web sites I've enjoyed. When watching a video I gravitate to the man on the bottom, not so much to the man on the top. I began to fantasize for some time that I would like to experience a man on my back. A man much like the guys I remember from being the towel boy in college.

I volunteer at the Y in the morning, I'm the towel guy, which allows me to hang around the showers. Mostly runners which I enjoy their physique. I don't know how to advertise that I'm available to opening a relationship. And for that matter, how to transition from conversation to something physical. Do I just say I would like to suck their dick?

Sorry to sound crazy about this.