Straight Male / 54
I Have Accepted My Sexual Inadequacies
I have accepted my inadequacies and compensate for them as best I can with penis hardware, lifelike sex toys and sexual fantasies. Beyond that, I encourage my wife to embrace Cuckoldry as a means to take her sexual exploration beyond the current boundaries.
I suppose I have always been aware at some level of my personal sexual inadequacies; like initially, when I compared my penis to the larger penises of other boys in our neighborhood and at the school gym class.
And, then, as I grew to be a teen, I was often questioned about my penis by perhaps sympathetic or perhaps not so kind girlfriends.
I probably should have known for sure that my capabilities in bed were not adequate, when my first teen bride left me to move in with a decades older gentleman after spending less than a year faithfully at my side.
But, I didn’t believe it and so my short comings definitely became totally undeniable, when my second and current wife chose to cuckold me by fucking a fit, well-hung, younger man. Ironically, I would’ve continued in ignorance and never known, had her younger lover not recorded an explicit video tape of her indiscretions and published it as a trophy on the Internet.
The results of discovering the video on the Internet were at first devastating; having to watch and listen over and over to her respond to a longer and fatter cock being pounded violently into her unprotected pussy by a young stud until he had her pleading for him to fill her c**t with his cum.
It was certainly shocking finding the illicit video of my wife’s wild sex. But, I was not prepared for that video of her with another man to cause me to become sexually aroused. That was the beginning of months and months of watching the video over and over; repeating cycles of sexual arousal, release, jealousy, shame, disappointment, grief, recovery, and then more sexual arousal. These ups and downs cycles took quite a toll on me and wore me down to the point where I was in a permanent state of cuckold submission. It also had the side effect of leading me to fully accept and embrace my sexual inadequacies along with a deep sincere desire to compensate for them as best I could in order to save my marriage.
It was after those months of solitary torture, as my wife and I were involved in foreplay before making love, that I confessed to her, that I had found a video of her having sex with another man. She was so shocked that I had to show her the video to convince her and she became very agitated. When I realized she was getting very upset, I told her that I understood why she had behaved the way she had and forgave her. But, further, I told her that I was having powerful sexual fantasies and enjoying watching her having sex with other men. At first my confession was met by total shock and disgust. But, it quickly turned in terror, as she realized our marriage could be at an end. When I realized the crisis I had created, I immediately forgave her and made all manner of excuses for the situation, which she neither accepted or denied. The crisis was avoided. But, I was still not adequately serving her sexual needs.
So, to address my issues, I began secretly acquiring penis hardware that enhanced my length, girth and hardness, in order to improve our sex life. My wife immediately caught me experimenting with these devices and expressed curiosity. There was some limited improvement in size, but it was temporary. for a while, but the novelty of that equipment declined rapidly. I then introduced large lifelike sex toys for her and that is still very much successful. I’ve added sexual fantasies for the both of us to help create a better sexual experience for her and hopefully justify her attention to my needs. Beyond that, I sincerely encourage my wife to embrace Cuckoldry as a means to take her sexual enjoyment to the next level and continue to explore beyond our current boundaries.
I suppose I have always been aware at some level of my personal sexual inadequacies; like initially, when I compared my penis to the larger penises of other boys in our neighborhood and at the school gym class.
And, then, as I grew to be a teen, I was often questioned about my penis by perhaps sympathetic or perhaps not so kind girlfriends.
I probably should have known for sure that my capabilities in bed were not adequate, when my first teen bride left me to move in with a decades older gentleman after spending less than a year faithfully at my side.
But, I didn’t believe it and so my short comings definitely became totally undeniable, when my second and current wife chose to cuckold me by fucking a fit, well-hung, younger man. Ironically, I would’ve continued in ignorance and never known, had her younger lover not recorded an explicit video tape of her indiscretions and published it as a trophy on the Internet.
The results of discovering the video on the Internet were at first devastating; having to watch and listen over and over to her respond to a longer and fatter cock being pounded violently into her unprotected pussy by a young stud until he had her pleading for him to fill her c**t with his cum.
It was certainly shocking finding the illicit video of my wife’s wild sex. But, I was not prepared for that video of her with another man to cause me to become sexually aroused. That was the beginning of months and months of watching the video over and over; repeating cycles of sexual arousal, release, jealousy, shame, disappointment, grief, recovery, and then more sexual arousal. These ups and downs cycles took quite a toll on me and wore me down to the point where I was in a permanent state of cuckold submission. It also had the side effect of leading me to fully accept and embrace my sexual inadequacies along with a deep sincere desire to compensate for them as best I could in order to save my marriage.
It was after those months of solitary torture, as my wife and I were involved in foreplay before making love, that I confessed to her, that I had found a video of her having sex with another man. She was so shocked that I had to show her the video to convince her and she became very agitated. When I realized she was getting very upset, I told her that I understood why she had behaved the way she had and forgave her. But, further, I told her that I was having powerful sexual fantasies and enjoying watching her having sex with other men. At first my confession was met by total shock and disgust. But, it quickly turned in terror, as she realized our marriage could be at an end. When I realized the crisis I had created, I immediately forgave her and made all manner of excuses for the situation, which she neither accepted or denied. The crisis was avoided. But, I was still not adequately serving her sexual needs.
So, to address my issues, I began secretly acquiring penis hardware that enhanced my length, girth and hardness, in order to improve our sex life. My wife immediately caught me experimenting with these devices and expressed curiosity. There was some limited improvement in size, but it was temporary. for a while, but the novelty of that equipment declined rapidly. I then introduced large lifelike sex toys for her and that is still very much successful. I’ve added sexual fantasies for the both of us to help create a better sexual experience for her and hopefully justify her attention to my needs. Beyond that, I sincerely encourage my wife to embrace Cuckoldry as a means to take her sexual enjoyment to the next level and continue to explore beyond our current boundaries.
# 76166 - by Mfmfantasy50 / January 19, 2025
