Bi-Sexual Male / 39
Cocksucker For Hobos
Apology at first, English is my second language.
To be honest with you, I am confused with myself and I hope writing down and share my feelings could help me to clarify my desires.
All my life I am attracted to women, but my sexual fantasies, when I jerk off, are about sucking off strangers, for which I am just a sex toy and they thrust their whole dirty cock into my mouth and facefuck me like crazy. So far I sucked over 20 men, but each time I was not turned on during the act at all. Afterwards I jerked off like crazy and I do not regret any of the encounters, but I don't understand why I am not turned on during the act. The explanation could be hidden behind the fact, that all men I had was a nice guys and no one treated me like cheap whore and fucked my face like crazy. Another reason could be that my brain is messed up, and I really don't know what is true. What I know is that when I swallow 10 inch dildo and facefuck myself ferociously, my cock is hard as a rock.
Last couple of months I have an urge to fulfil my strongest and dirtiest fantasy. Buy a couple of bottles of some strong alcohol and ask two or three old&ugly gypsy hookers to watch me blow a group of drunken hobos in public (park, alley or adult store). Let them facefuck me, slap my face, spit on me and call me fag-bitch-whore. And after I swallow last guy, let women squat over my head, let them piss into my mount, drink it all and let hobos watch it.
Together with this desire-fantasy I also have a similar ones, like to suck dirty cocks of very unattractive men, or suck a group of strangers through the glory-hole, or blow someone in a hallway in front of my flat and let my neighbours found out that I am a cocksucker.
When I think about it all my desires-dreams are about sucking of stranger and let someone to see it, where more humiliating the situation is, more excitement I feel.
To summarize it, I don't know if I am "normal", if I should accept the fact that humiliation turns me on, or go to therapy.
I am more than happy to hear your suggestions. You can be totally honest with me, no PC bullshit, 'cause it is highly probable that if you call me a dirty whore, I would be turned on by it. [let's test it, shall we?]
To be honest with you, I am confused with myself and I hope writing down and share my feelings could help me to clarify my desires.
All my life I am attracted to women, but my sexual fantasies, when I jerk off, are about sucking off strangers, for which I am just a sex toy and they thrust their whole dirty cock into my mouth and facefuck me like crazy. So far I sucked over 20 men, but each time I was not turned on during the act at all. Afterwards I jerked off like crazy and I do not regret any of the encounters, but I don't understand why I am not turned on during the act. The explanation could be hidden behind the fact, that all men I had was a nice guys and no one treated me like cheap whore and fucked my face like crazy. Another reason could be that my brain is messed up, and I really don't know what is true. What I know is that when I swallow 10 inch dildo and facefuck myself ferociously, my cock is hard as a rock.
Last couple of months I have an urge to fulfil my strongest and dirtiest fantasy. Buy a couple of bottles of some strong alcohol and ask two or three old&ugly gypsy hookers to watch me blow a group of drunken hobos in public (park, alley or adult store). Let them facefuck me, slap my face, spit on me and call me fag-bitch-whore. And after I swallow last guy, let women squat over my head, let them piss into my mount, drink it all and let hobos watch it.
Together with this desire-fantasy I also have a similar ones, like to suck dirty cocks of very unattractive men, or suck a group of strangers through the glory-hole, or blow someone in a hallway in front of my flat and let my neighbours found out that I am a cocksucker.
When I think about it all my desires-dreams are about sucking of stranger and let someone to see it, where more humiliating the situation is, more excitement I feel.
To summarize it, I don't know if I am "normal", if I should accept the fact that humiliation turns me on, or go to therapy.
I am more than happy to hear your suggestions. You can be totally honest with me, no PC bullshit, 'cause it is highly probable that if you call me a dirty whore, I would be turned on by it. [let's test it, shall we?]
# 57275 - by Daedalos / March 13, 2022
