Around 14 to 15 i was a bisexual guy who pretty much got no action but i was out with my mom, dad, all friends. So i had this best friend who was straight and a year older then me and really i had like the hugest crush on him. It was ridiculously i didn't really care that i liked both boy and girls but the weird thing is he was a little homophobic never once did he say one homophobic thing to me and he never really thought of the possibility that i would play for the other team or both teams and i was a little girly i guess. When i had told him i went both ways he didn't really care he stopped with his homophobic banter. nothing really changed. He was hot tall and a bit muscular but bony. I always jerked off to the thought of him fucking the living crap out of me. Basically he started to sleep over at my house all the time every weekened. One night he was sleep and i went next to him and i felt his dick through his pants and it was erect i stopped instantly and told myself that this was wrong and tried to forget about it, he didn't know about it. He stopped sleeping on the floor and would sleep in my bed and i would like lay on him. So we'd sleep in the same bed as weeks past my lust for him started to grow alot and i would touch him in different places. Then one night he was sleep on my bed and i was watching a show and i started to have my hands travel down through his boxers and i felt the pubic hair and his soft dick and he never wore a belt so his pants were easy to lift up and i through a cover over my head to hid what i was about to do. Which was suck his dick my heart was beating and fear in my heart but i went on either way. It was soft and i licked the head it tasted weird to me but i wasn't disgusted. A second later he stirred in his sleep and woke up but really drowsy he thought i bit him but he didn't know where. so i had got away with that and i agreed to stop. months later during summer vacation in the morning once again he was sleep and i laid down on him watching some movie i noticed that he had a hard on and i felt it and i was shocked i kept my eyes on him and was really to jump into space afraid out of my mind. He was really deep into sleep i mean knocked out. I got on my knees in front of him and dare i say unzipped his pants and then took the dick out and it was i say beautiful big thick. I was in shock that he hadn't woken up yet so i went further i went on to suck on it like it was the best sucker in the world. I also jerked it a few times. He was still sleep i just quickly put it back in his pants. I was going to continue and try to make him cum but he woken up and again i'd gotten away. I did this over and over but i alway made him cum everytime he'd go to sleep i unzip his pants and take his large dick out it was always hard and ready i blew him and jerked him until he cam. Most times i do it in more two times in one night. I was sort of guilty but at the same time horny and actually happy. I'd do it every time then when he come over and would go to sleep. Near the end of summer i was bold enough to do it while he was awake, i was too late though he'd fallen asleep. I woke him up and threw a cover over my head and then proceeded to blow him i look threw the covers to see if he was still awake and his eyes always stayed glued on the television. I was happy a bit and he started to back up and his legs spread out some more and his dick got harder and i went on going down on him, then at the worse time my mother came knocking on the door. I wanted to go on and just get caught, My best friend sighed and fixed himself as i got back to the bed and as if nothing had happen, my mother didn't come through the front door and we were safe i guess. We went on like nothing happened and the silence of the place was almost deathly i was scared out of my mind but ready for anything to happen. the rest of the night went on normally except he crossed his legs to maybe stop me from trying something like that. He'd watch a movie go on to go to sleep and i would blow him off in his sleep. I'd woken him up and he went to watch a movie i can't really remember i went to sleep and woke up at the end of the movie and his legs weren't crossed since it was passed 12 i unzipped him and pulled out his hard dick he did nothing but watch the movie quiet both of us were. I jerked it a little and sucked on the head a bit and remembering what happened last time i think i put it back in. I turned the Tv off and he gone to sleep as i planned. I did the usual take his dick out and i jerked it and sucked him until he came by that time that night he came at least three times. We never talked about it at all. We went on with our friendship like it never ever happened. Inside i was guilty for taking advantage of him like that so many times and tried to stop. After summer we went back to school and he stayed over once more i tried to start up but he didn't let it happen since he would move around to stop me. I went back to touching him and blowing him off in his sleep. Over the next months i did this well into the next year. Just molesting him in his sleep multiple times a night and to the next night until i very well began to think about it and guilt welled up inside me. I tried to stop but when he unexpectedly came over i saw that when i jerked him off three times again like i had did many times before i saw that it was an empty sentence. After that i was so ashamed of myself for taking advantage of the one person who actually trust me and i over the total times maybe over thirty times took advantage of him in his sleep i finally stopped completely. i kept a journal to let out all of my feeling about my guilt and i was relinquished of it quickly. We stayed best friends and went on like nothing really happened and well what he doesn't know. He never mentioned a word about it or brought it up and always treated me the same. I never once again touched him or took advantage of him in that way ever again. After a year of doing all of that i understood what i did was wrong and just terrible. He never found out only what i did when he was sleep never got caught all twenty something times i did that. when he was awake he only knows about that. To this day we're still friends and i don't even know if he remembers. I still do think about his huge dick and what a joy it would have been to have that inside of me but i really didn't deserve it with all i had done.