I have been married to the same man for almost 10 years. We have two small children, which is honestly the only reason we're still together. Sometimes I feel so trapped because I don't feel like I have options but to be in this marriage for my children's benefit.
A couple of years ago, I found an online virtual world game. I've been playing this game on a daily basis for hours a day for the last two and a half years. I met someone there less than a month after I began playing. He too is married and not in the best marriage. We were both looking for what we were lacking at home and found that with each other in this game.
My husband knows about the game and even plays himself. He knows about my online relationship with this man, and has had his own relationships in the game as well. We agreed early on that we would keep the game separate from real life and whatever happened in the game was fine. This has worked thus far.
The man that I met in the game lives a couple of states away, so distance has been our friend, so to speak. Because of the distance between us, we can't just meet up somewhere and be together on a whim. Thus, we've both been physically faithful in our marriages.
About 2 months ago, he told me that he had a business trip planned and would be in my state for a week...less than 45 minutes from where I live!! I started laying the ground work and making plans to have a couple of days to spend with him while he is here. I have managed to do just that and he will be here tomorrow night! I won't be able to get away to be with him until later in the week, but I can't wait to see him!
I am so head over heels in love with this man. Part of me is scared that taking our online relationship to the physical world will damage what we have and part if me is afraid that once we're together the first time, we will want nothing more than to be together again and again. I'm excited and scared and anxious and I feel like I'm waiting on Christmas morning.
The bad part is that no matter how it all plays out in my head, I never see a long term future for he and I. I won't leave my marriage because of my children and he won't leave his because he's been married for a LONG time. We have talked about a lot of things and know that being together in the real world is not an option. So what does that leave us with? An affair and maybe only this one time. Will that be enough or will it destroy what we have?
I have so many thoughts running through my head, I had to put them down somewhere and I certainly can't talk to anyone in my life about this besides him. He and I have talked and although we have concerns, it's not stopping us from taking advantage of this opportunity. I have never, ever been unfaithful to anyone that I've ever been with in my life....not in the physical sense. Emotionally, I guess I checked out a long time ago.
I'm about to commit adultry and I don't feel the least bit of guilt over it. Does that make me a horrible person? *sighs*
A couple of years ago, I found an online virtual world game. I've been playing this game on a daily basis for hours a day for the last two and a half years. I met someone there less than a month after I began playing. He too is married and not in the best marriage. We were both looking for what we were lacking at home and found that with each other in this game.
My husband knows about the game and even plays himself. He knows about my online relationship with this man, and has had his own relationships in the game as well. We agreed early on that we would keep the game separate from real life and whatever happened in the game was fine. This has worked thus far.
The man that I met in the game lives a couple of states away, so distance has been our friend, so to speak. Because of the distance between us, we can't just meet up somewhere and be together on a whim. Thus, we've both been physically faithful in our marriages.
About 2 months ago, he told me that he had a business trip planned and would be in my state for a week...less than 45 minutes from where I live!! I started laying the ground work and making plans to have a couple of days to spend with him while he is here. I have managed to do just that and he will be here tomorrow night! I won't be able to get away to be with him until later in the week, but I can't wait to see him!
I am so head over heels in love with this man. Part of me is scared that taking our online relationship to the physical world will damage what we have and part if me is afraid that once we're together the first time, we will want nothing more than to be together again and again. I'm excited and scared and anxious and I feel like I'm waiting on Christmas morning.
The bad part is that no matter how it all plays out in my head, I never see a long term future for he and I. I won't leave my marriage because of my children and he won't leave his because he's been married for a LONG time. We have talked about a lot of things and know that being together in the real world is not an option. So what does that leave us with? An affair and maybe only this one time. Will that be enough or will it destroy what we have?
I have so many thoughts running through my head, I had to put them down somewhere and I certainly can't talk to anyone in my life about this besides him. He and I have talked and although we have concerns, it's not stopping us from taking advantage of this opportunity. I have never, ever been unfaithful to anyone that I've ever been with in my life....not in the physical sense. Emotionally, I guess I checked out a long time ago.
I'm about to commit adultry and I don't feel the least bit of guilt over it. Does that make me a horrible person? *sighs*
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