I work as cabin crew and have an overwhelming crush on a pilot who works for the same company. He's married. We flew together once, he added me on Facebook that night and we've spoken pretty much every day ever since. He's 8 years older than me, his wife is 4 years older than me. She lives in America, we live in Europe. To start with, his opinion was "what she doesn't know won't hurt her" and of course I totally agreed. Of course when shit began to get real, him inviting me back to his, or telling me online exactly what he wanted to do to me, we spoke about how he might chicken out if it ever came to the crunch. We both know we both want it though. He says if I pretty much corner him, he'll do it. He says he'd feel less guilt if he didn't initiate it. He also wants us to kiss in the flight deck. In the aircrafts we fly, there are 2 pilots - when one needs to take a leak, a cabin crew member has to go in. This is when we've decided we'll do it. Tomorrow morning, he goes to Florida to spend the week with his wife. He has all of January & March there, and of course some random dates between. We both fancy each other like mad and really I just want us to get tipsy so we stop being shy. I've tried to put myself in her shoes, and think how I'd feel if my husband of 4 years cheated on me with someone 4 years younger than me, but on the other hand, I wouldn't live on another continent, not work, and live off a £1 ,500 handout from my husband every month, nor would I expect him to spend £3k on a car for me. I'd fucking move with him, y'know, be the doting wife & do shit together. I want that man, I don't want to be his girlfriend and I definitely don't wanna split up him & his wife, I just want a bit of on-the-side physical loving. From his point of view this is an entirely win win situation. I just have to work out how I'm going to make him want me more.