I was having a perfectly boring life with my control freak husband and my nervous nellie lover on the side, when into my life comes a new guy. And a what a guy! He's in one of my classes and has been flirting with me almost since day one. I feel a connection to him that I can't even explain, like we knew each other before. When he puts a hand on my arm or my shoulder, I just want to melt - he feels so strong and solid. My husband is a little guy and I like big tall solid guys (not skinny guys). And I love listening to his voice - he has a light accent - it;s like listening to my own personal radio station.
Well, so we finally did it - we skipped class last week and went somewhere and OH MY GOD!!!!
It was the most incredible sex I have ever had. We were so in tune with each other, it was amazing. And he did a lot of things I had never felt before. He was sweet and sensual and sexy and confident, he felt solid, he had energy to just keep going and going, and doing different things. And at the end, we just lay there, with him stroking my face and holding my head, and looking into my eyes.
As for the intercourse, he felt perfect inside of me (finally!) and spent the whole time pleasuring me. When it was his turn, he looked like he was slipping into another world. It was so awesome having this big, confident man let himself be vulnerable with me.
He didn't up and run afterwards, and what do you know, hewas asking to get together again just yesterday! What a dream come true! But I needed a little time so I said no for now, with a promise for a future rendezvous.
Except, I blew it.... because instead of meeting up with my other lover and telling him it was over, or just keeping him on the side, I blurted it out to him( what an idiot) and he got mad and upset and jealous.
He wasn't doing anything anyway - we only ever had intercourse once in 2 1/2 years, but always do a lot of "foreplay" and other things. We see each other about once a week, sometimes twice. He's afraid to do anything real because then he'll REALLY be cheating on his wife. Oral sex, etc. isn't really cheating, he says. So, ho hum. It was exciting at the beginning and now it's pretty dull.
So guy #3 is pissed off and won't talk to me, and the bad part is that I feel like a scum, like I'm breaking his heart. That's how he's acting. I DID promise him that I wouldn't go looking for anybody else - but that was when he was keeping me in screams of pleasure. Now they are sighs of resignation, just like in my marriage.
So I should have dumped him first (and my husband, too, hell), and then gone for door #3. I think I need a vacation!
Well, so we finally did it - we skipped class last week and went somewhere and OH MY GOD!!!!
It was the most incredible sex I have ever had. We were so in tune with each other, it was amazing. And he did a lot of things I had never felt before. He was sweet and sensual and sexy and confident, he felt solid, he had energy to just keep going and going, and doing different things. And at the end, we just lay there, with him stroking my face and holding my head, and looking into my eyes.
As for the intercourse, he felt perfect inside of me (finally!) and spent the whole time pleasuring me. When it was his turn, he looked like he was slipping into another world. It was so awesome having this big, confident man let himself be vulnerable with me.
He didn't up and run afterwards, and what do you know, hewas asking to get together again just yesterday! What a dream come true! But I needed a little time so I said no for now, with a promise for a future rendezvous.
Except, I blew it.... because instead of meeting up with my other lover and telling him it was over, or just keeping him on the side, I blurted it out to him( what an idiot) and he got mad and upset and jealous.
He wasn't doing anything anyway - we only ever had intercourse once in 2 1/2 years, but always do a lot of "foreplay" and other things. We see each other about once a week, sometimes twice. He's afraid to do anything real because then he'll REALLY be cheating on his wife. Oral sex, etc. isn't really cheating, he says. So, ho hum. It was exciting at the beginning and now it's pretty dull.
So guy #3 is pissed off and won't talk to me, and the bad part is that I feel like a scum, like I'm breaking his heart. That's how he's acting. I DID promise him that I wouldn't go looking for anybody else - but that was when he was keeping me in screams of pleasure. Now they are sighs of resignation, just like in my marriage.
So I should have dumped him first (and my husband, too, hell), and then gone for door #3. I think I need a vacation!
