I am currently in a female/female relationship for the past almost 15 years, but the last 5 have not been pretty stale. We have had alot of probelms with her family, her mother dying, my brother-in-law dying, loosing our home and many such family dramas. All of this has really taken a toll on us. I have been so sad and angry at her for shutting me out and cheating on me not once but twice with the same girl each time. The girl is just fatal attraction crazy. So about almost 2 years ago what I would say a flirtation started with myself and this sexier than hell man. Now I am not model thin, I am thick as he calls me but I am very sexy so he says. Now as you would imagine this friendship has advanced into more as of recently, now here is the hitch he is married. I a do not expect anything more than a friends with benefits, but the quilt is eating me alive after we meet up and have some really awsome sex. He is kind, tender, and loving. We do not use the love word. We do really love our spouses, but get so lost in our attraction and passion for one another. My head says "END IT NOW", but my body screams "NO". I adore what we have and for the first time in a long time I have found stolen moments of happiness for me, when all my life has been sacrifice for my family. I know what to do, but I am so tired of being sad.