This seems to be my week for confessions... My younger cousin (by a year) is getting married and although I'm happy he's getting married, I'm sad that I'm not. I want a husband and family so badly and it's frustrating that I don't. I'm in my early 20's but I've always felt emotionally older... I relate better to people who are at least 4 or 5 years older. I don't feel like a 20-something woman, I feel like I should be at least 30 or 40. I've always had this feeling and it's extremely frustrating because on top of it, I LOOK younger than I am. I could easily pass as a 17 yr old... so older guys usually aren't that interested in me because I don't look legal. FML. OOOH. and fucking eharmony.... they matched me up with my ex today. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. I could go on!!!!!! Fuck!!!!!! We MET on eharmony the first time so this is like a kick in the face. Dated for 2.5 yrs and broke up 3 months ago. FUCK eharmony. FUCK. I'm really bitter. And depressed. And Lonely. Fuck life.