I DID sleep with Brandon that night. I believed you when you told me that you would never be with me again...i lost hope. And afterwards, I felt so awful. I don't care if you never want to see me again and if you will never ever even consider rekindling our relationship. Im just going to keep waiting for you, and keep wishing that i knew how to be grateful for the things i had when i had them.

I also hate for for leaving me, but Im jealous that you did it.