i have a wonderful boyfriend. he's everything iv never wanted but really need in a guy, hes laid back, handles my crazy ups and downs, lets me be, doesnt try to control me, never gets angry and makes me laugh. he is nothing like any other guy iv ever dated. we'v been dating for 3 years, i want to marry him. my confession is that iv cheated on every man iv dated, and he isnt an exception. worse yet? its someone he knows, a friend of his. his friend is emotional, whiny, the art type, has low self-esteem, and inlove with me. i took his virginity and have been his only experiances with women other then kissing. it seems to happen once a year, usually when my boyfriend and i are fighting. my boyfriend lacks that gentle, emotional, affection side im so used to with my exs. his friend is the opposite, and when im not with my boyfriend, im talkin about feelings and etc. with his friend. i wish i could somehow get my boyfriend to be more like his friend on occasion, it would be nice to cry on his shoulder on days im emotional and be understood.