i am a pervert and a voyeur ever since i can remember. i touched a girl when i was 14. it was my cousin.. she was fat but i had some thing for her in my mind. she used to visit us once in the year with my aunt and uncle.. she was also 14 at that time but had a well developed body. at night when we used to sleep in nearby beds i would wake up in the middle of the night and go near her bed. she was a sound sleeper so it was easy for me to check her out. i remember the first touch. i was burning with fear and excitement. i could smell her perfume and sweat eminating from her body. in the dark.i slowly advanced my hands till i touched on some warm part of her body.. it was her waist since she was sleeping sideways.. it was only the beginning of long sleepless nights. i have measured the size of her tits by my bare hands.. she always wears a bra so i have never touched her bare tits. i know the shape and size of her ass like the back of my hand.. i have plotted the size and shape of her china many times, but have never ventured inside her panty or fingered her. when she got older i tried that on her younger sister but she caught me doing it. so now i stopped.