In fifth year of relationship with girlfriend.. we live together. Anyways I don't trust her, and she has been unfaithful in the past. We have done some counseling and have always worked on our issues. Problem is I still don't trust her, and the sex has drastically slowed down. We argue over sex, and I have become tired of it. This past weekend, I traveled out of town to help my brother move some furniture. While I was there, I met a girl. We ended up getting a hotel for one of the nights I was there. We had decent sex too. Her pussy was much more shallow than my girlfriends and I enjoyed the feeling of being so large to her. She loved my body and the way I kissed her, which made me feel so good since I haven't been getting regular sex at home for a while. I ended up cumming in her pussy so hard, filling her up with my seed. It felt fucking amazing! Afterwards we laid together with her curled up close on me with my arm around her. We conversed a bit, and she asked me if I had a girlfriend. I told her sort of. After that she doped the subject as I suspect she was disappointed with my answer. It ended up being just a one night stand, no contacts or numbers exchanged in the morning. I feel like I may have hurt her because it felt like we were making love that night.... So now back at home with girlfriend. I felt things weren't being patched up with my girlfriend and I suspected she was up to something, I know full well that what I did was no better by the way, but as a man felt pushed to do this withe the lack of sex at home. However from my lack of trust and gut feeling, I have used her Facebook password to access her account. I know this is an invasion of privacy but am a firm believer that when things get to the point where you don't feel you are getting the truth from someone you love and both have invested time and such emotions to each other, you may have to do some digging to find out the truth... Long story short, she has started chatting with a guy from back home where she used to live, he appears to have a family and children, but the subject of them possibly still having feelings for each other came up.. At this point it is hard for me to look at my girlfriend. I am aware that it is not enough proof of her physically cheating but to me it is still emotional cheating. These chats have been going on a few weeks before I even did what I did. So now I am stuck waiting to find out how far this goes before I tell her what I saw. I don't think it is ok at all, but am thinking maybe it is just for attention etc since we have been having our issues. I know that anything is possible and am not going to be naive either. I am hurt, and while I did the wrong thing by fucking the other woman and by spying on my girlfriend feel that most people don't truly understand how this works until they themselves are in the situation. There are a lot of emotions and you may care about your partner to a point where even if you cheat you still want to stay with your partner. Most people would comment that you don't love them if you would cheat, but it just isn't true at all. Love itself is a strong emotion but is NOT the deciding factor of many of lifes issues. Mannn, I love how I bent that woman over the hotel bed and pounded her pussy, she was moaning to me that she could feel me in her stomach... Very exciting, but I'm very sad today because all I want is for my current girlfriend to make me feel this way and as a man I know that if she would that I would not be doing what I did as I know it is not only dangerous, but not fixing anything. Anyways thats my story world, all I ask is to make things better between my woman and I so that we can be more satisfied together