I have always considered myself straight. I had a best friend in high school that used to hang out with me a lot. One time we were taking a nap, I was in my own bed and he was on the floor. I started masturbating to nothing in particular, definitely not him. Later that day, he asked me about it and I denied it. But I know he knew I was lying. He started coming on to me more often, and I always ignored it.

Months went by and I started to wonder what it would be like. One night we got really drunk and I told him I was going to go take a "nap". A few minutes later he came into my bed too and soon after starting stroking me. I started breathing heavily to let him know I was ok with it. he started moving his hand down my pants, and touching my dick. It wasn't really hard yet cause I was nervous and also really drunk. I just pretended to be asleep as he touched me. Then, my little brother who is just a few years younger than me walked in. Fortunately, he didn't see us until after my friend pulled his hand out of my pants. We never talked about it and I stopped talking to him. I really wish I could go back to that night and lock the door and let him touch me all over. I wish I could return his touch. Ever since then I am obsessed with the idea of sucking dick. i want to do a 69 so badly with a guy it drives me insane.