Since a while before the new year I started to find it harder and harder to get aroused by porn. Normal stuff just doesn't do it for me anymore, and the weirder stuff like beast/scat/etc have always made me go limp, so I basically had nothing to fap to for a while. Right now I'm lying on the bed next to my cousin and his girlfriend. They're both facing the other direction, and her ass is almost in my face. A moment ago I took out my phone and started recording up her skirt. A panty shot is nowhere near as good as what I can get online, but for some reason the RISK of getting caught just made it SO arousing. My heart was beating, and I know I'm going to and beat off to this later. I know, it's fucking weird, and absolutely fucking STUPID, but I think I understand what people mean when they say that the risk of getting caught turns them on. HOLY FUCK. I don't know what I would have done if I'd been caught. Hahaha.