I'm male, approaching 30, and have spent my adult life dating women.

I'm not attracted to men; their faces or bodies don't do anything for me. But the idea of sucking a nice thick cock really really turns me on. It's so bad that I frequently check out the casual encounters on craigslist.

Just once though I was brave enough to take a risk - It had been six months or so since I had split with my last girl friend and I had managed to exhaust most of the internet in that time. I needed to experience a real touch again.

So I checked out craigslist and finally got together the guts to email one of the ads and after several very nervous emails back and forth we arranged to meet. I'm lucky that my flat mate is frequently out - so i could arrange to meet at mine... I was so nervous and my heart was thumping so hard I thought it might leap out of my throat.

The guy turned up about half an hour or so later - reasonable looking but nothing special. Just relieved that it wasn't someone I knew. I bring him into my flat - all i can think of is that i just want to start... to lose the nerves - to see what it feels like to take this strangers cock into my mouth... will it be what I imagined it to be? will it be sexy? satisfying? disgusting? will i like sucking, licking, stroking or will I be freaked out and discover my fantasy should have stayed a fantasy. I've been leaking pre-cum since he first responded to my email.

So I lead this man straight to my bedroom. We each strip, about 6ft away from each other - one on either side of the room.

Barely able to talk or make eye contact. We then lie on top of my bed and he takes his cock into his hand and starts to roughly jerk on it - nerves are keeping him soft... it's not a very impressive cock - but it's there a couple of feet away from me ready for me to touch.

So I remove his hand from his cock, and slide my mouth down to the tip - he's still soft but he moans as I slide it into my mouth. I start to stroke him with my hand running it gently over his shaft and balls...

I'm trying to remember what girls have done to me in the past - what did I like? and then I'm trying it on him. Soon he's hard as I am. He gets me to slide over him into a 69 and he wraps his lips around the top of my thick cock before taking my balls into his mouth. I find it a bit of a distraction with neither one of us quite getting the experience we want so i move off and just focus on his cock.

The man does everything as I want - he's quiet apart from moans of pleasure, doesn't distract me or push me further than I can cope - just lets me take care of his cock with my lips, tongue and hand. A few minutes later and he tells me he's about to cum... i remove my lips from his cock and tell him to cum - almost before the words have finished being said he's back in my mouth and a flood of slightly salty fluid is now joining my saliva... three jets of cum into my mouth.

Sadly the experience then went changed a little - once he's had his relief he runs off to the far side of the bed unable to touch or be touched... but he tells me to lie back and stroke myself. so i do - and i close my eyes and think about what i've just done and enjoy the taste of cum in my mouth. A couple of minutes later and i have a huge orgasm, and I'm shooting cum all over my chest.

It surprised me how long the taste of cum remained in my mouth that day.

I've never told any of my friends, or anyone from my family.

I think it didn't quite live up to my fantasies - and I've not yet done it again but the number of times I've cum whilst re-imaginging it tells me i probably will be a cock sucker again one day.