When i was about 12 i started dating a a senior in high school. it was great to be wanted by an " older guy " i also lost my virginity to him. we dated for several years and through those years he had hit me several times i know now it was a control thing, because also in those years i somehow became the fuck slut of our group of friends. he never had a problem sharing me with any of them. it started out small enough such as having sex with me if front of them or at a party on the hood of his car while everyone sat around drinking. the oldest man of our group was in his 60's and i remember being in the front seat of my boyfriends car while he was in the back seat he reached around and pulled up my shirt, pulled aside my bra and played with my tits while my boyfriend was driving. i didnt stop him for fear of being hit or loosing my boyfriend and so everything just progressed from there, the next episope i remember is being at at a party and my boyfriend decided he wanted to have sex so he walked us to the bedroom. i remmeber being held down by him as his friends ranging in age from like 16 to that guy in his 60's just touching me and watching and taking poloroid pictures of me. still at that point none of them had actually had sex with me just touching me and fingering me but because he held me down for them to do that things only got worse from there. all together in our group there were probably 20 of us 10 to 15 were men. every weekend from that point forward i was being fingered, sucking dick, jacking someone off, or actually being fucked whenever or where ever someone wanted. i remember being on a doark dirt road one night all of us partying and they thought it would be cool to watch girls together now remember i never denied him anything because i didnt want to loose him or be hit by him so it was suggested that another guys girlfriend hop up on a car hood and they could watch me eat her out. i was like 13 at the time i didnt even realize girls did that together but i went ahead and did it because that is what he and they all wanted. they watched and took pictures for like 2 or 3 hours. i was so ashamed of everything that i had done in the past for him and was still doing but he was my first " love " i didnt know how to make it stop. i was shared by everyone in that group until i was 15 years old when i moved away. he didnt even know where i was moving to exactly but i moved like 2 hours away and ill be if he didnt show up one day in my driveway and again i felt the pull to him. for the next year him and i dated again but this time he would only come to see me on weekends and during those weekends it was just him and i but the sex got weirder and i still couldnt tell him no. i feel like i constantly had my head between his legs or he was putting things in me and taking pictures but he never brought anyone else around until one day he showed up with a friend he wanted us to go down to the river to all go fishing. yep right fishing and my dumbass went. i ended up on the river bank for hours having my first threesome. they had the best time i was so ashamed but i knew i would be hit so stupied me went along they were probably in their early 20's by then i was about 16. those two didnt care that people went by on boats or walked by or nothing. i sucked both off so many times, for the first time i was having to lick their assholes and did anal and everything they could think of. they slapped me some spit on me they seven spit in my mouth, i remember several times and i didnt understand why they would cum into an old fast food cup and end the end i was handed that to drink. they even put tree stick in my ass took pictures of that. and had me ride the gear shift in that dumb little car while they took pictures. what was i going to do at that point i was their whore. after they were done they dropped me off at home and for many years i never saw either of them again until i moved back to my home town and just like that he was there at my door again only this time i had a boyfriend twice his size and he left and i havnt seen him since. that boyfriend is now my husband and although we have been at parties where he has had sex with me in front of a few of his friends and i have and do allow him to bring a woman home on occasion and we will have a threesome he has never allowed another man to touch me at all. and for that i am so glad that i will eat our a woman as often as he wants me to. was i a whore just asking for it back then or just a stupied kid?