I don't love you, at least not in the way that you probably think. I care about you a lot and wish that I could be there for you more. I know you aren't happy most of the time and it really saddens me to know how much your wife likes to fuck with your head and play games with you.
I know we fuck around more than two married people should - but I can't seem to say no to you. I feel like you are so depressed and get so little joy out of your life that if us occasionally being together makes you happy, then I will gladly be that for you. I really wish I could be more for you - I'd really like to be that safe haven for you, but since you never share how you are feeling, it's not something that I feel I could ever tell you.
In some ways, I wish we had never hooked up. The past several months have been very confusing for me. There was a time when I felt I spent too much time thinking about you when I wasn't with you.
My biggest fear is having my husband and your best friend find out about us. I know it would destroy him. And for that reason, I cannot continue to be with you behind his back. I care about you so much, more than I probably should, and your happiness means a lot to me. But I feel like I am at a crossroads here and I choose my husband. What makes me sad is that I know you will feel betrayed by yet another person and it will make you even more introverted about your feelings.
Oh what the fuck! This is anonymous after all. Maybe I am a little in love with you and I can't be. I just can't be in love with you and him too. I am just setting myself up to have neither of you.
Why can't you just tell me how you feel about me? Again, I know you aren't a "feelings" guy but just once I'd like to know exactly and truthfully how you feel about me. I think your wife suspects that you care for me, and you have done things that have shown me that you care. Oh shit - if I think of that, then I think it's pretty obvious you just might be in love with me. Fuck. What the fuck are we going to do? This isn't going to end well.
I can love you from a distance but I can't risk having my husband find out about us hooking up. I hope you'll understand one day that I am doing this so that you and he can remain best friends. He'd get over losing me as his wife, he'd never get over losing you as his best friend. And if you ever wanted proof that I love you, there it is. I care more about your relationship with him than mine. I am sorry if I hurt you.
I know we fuck around more than two married people should - but I can't seem to say no to you. I feel like you are so depressed and get so little joy out of your life that if us occasionally being together makes you happy, then I will gladly be that for you. I really wish I could be more for you - I'd really like to be that safe haven for you, but since you never share how you are feeling, it's not something that I feel I could ever tell you.
In some ways, I wish we had never hooked up. The past several months have been very confusing for me. There was a time when I felt I spent too much time thinking about you when I wasn't with you.
My biggest fear is having my husband and your best friend find out about us. I know it would destroy him. And for that reason, I cannot continue to be with you behind his back. I care about you so much, more than I probably should, and your happiness means a lot to me. But I feel like I am at a crossroads here and I choose my husband. What makes me sad is that I know you will feel betrayed by yet another person and it will make you even more introverted about your feelings.
Oh what the fuck! This is anonymous after all. Maybe I am a little in love with you and I can't be. I just can't be in love with you and him too. I am just setting myself up to have neither of you.
Why can't you just tell me how you feel about me? Again, I know you aren't a "feelings" guy but just once I'd like to know exactly and truthfully how you feel about me. I think your wife suspects that you care for me, and you have done things that have shown me that you care. Oh shit - if I think of that, then I think it's pretty obvious you just might be in love with me. Fuck. What the fuck are we going to do? This isn't going to end well.
I can love you from a distance but I can't risk having my husband find out about us hooking up. I hope you'll understand one day that I am doing this so that you and he can remain best friends. He'd get over losing me as his wife, he'd never get over losing you as his best friend. And if you ever wanted proof that I love you, there it is. I care more about your relationship with him than mine. I am sorry if I hurt you.
