I've been a heavy smoker for almost 30 years. I had a kidney stone last week and they found a nodule on my lung. I have to go in this afternoon and get a scan to see if I have lung cancer.

I'm in my midforties, have been in school for the last 3 years trying to get a master's degree so I can get a decent job after losing mine in the crash. I have a teenage son with autism and a wife with a chronic medical condition. I've been out of the closet for 3 years.

I'm fucking terrified.