Hi there. I'd just like to say that what ever you're going through may be bad but it could be worse. You probably have people that love you aand wouldn't want to hear you say things like that. Pull through, be strong.
Hear, hear! Life has its wrong turns, but it also has its happy moments! Live for the happy moments! Small stuff like ice cream for dinner, or a particularly lovely sunset (sunrises are even better, if you're a morning person) or a kind word from a friend...it all counts! Look for the magic, and it will come to you, I promise
Every time I feel shitty I always remember this young paraplegic girl sobbing, crying and driving her Wheelchair in front of vehicles in a grocery store parking lot because she wanted to end it. I always think I guess I don't really have it that bad do I? For your family, suicide is a very mean and selfish punishment to them not you.