My girlfriend and I have never had sex. What kills me is that she wants to wait til marriage. It's not the fact that she wants to wait that kills me, it's the fact that right before she met me, she had had sex with a guy she had just met the same night. Yes, she was going through an emotionally tough time and she was drunk out of her mind, but it still really bothers me. She's been through a lot, and I can sort of start to understand it, but I still have a lot of questions about it, and it makes me jealous, and I'm usually not the jealous type. I feel inadequate and I feel like it's unfair.