I am a 53 year old male and my first sexual experience with another person was when I was not quite 12. My father caught me using my Mothers lingerie catalogue to masturbate. After he had got me to get washed and dressed again he started to explain things to me, when my eves dropping, 14 year old Sister burst in, laughing her socks off. She said we did that in Biology a few weeks ago, so my Dad made her fetch her school books and let her explain it all to me.

You need to understand that I was terrified of my Sister, she was and is VERY bossy, and constantly reminds me that she is the oldest, sometimes violently not so much now-a-days. So it was a shock to have my sister telling me all about sex. I was even more embarrassing to have her talking of "Rude" things in front of both my parents, so I did not take in much of what she said. I was to busy trying to sink into the floor.

I was very confused by the time I got home from school the following day. Since my parents would not be home from work for another few hours, I screwed up my courage and went and asked my sister to explain it all again, so we went up her room where she got her books out again, we sat on her bed with the book between us. She sat cross legged so I could clearly see her panties under her school dress, and I knew she saw me looking.

But this time she did not use the diagrams in the book, she used her body instead, she slipped out of her school dress and pointed to her breast and said If I wanted to see them I was take her bra off, she had help but I did it, and there she was in just her panties with her pointy firm adolescent breasts with their adolescent nipples looking so exciting. She started rubbing them and said that I should see what they felt like, I was so excited I made a grab for them, she said "ow! Be gentle" Knocked my hands away and knelt up in front me of rubbing them in face, while I sucked them. I still remember how soft and velvety her skin was.

After few minutes of this she pull away and told me to take off my clothes, which I did, whilst she slipped off her panties and played with hairless puffy pussy, and I just stood fascinated as she flicked her clit and pushed two of the fingers of other hand into her vagina. Moaning, and moaning and moaning.

I sat/collapsed back on to her bed, facing me she climbed onto my lap, she trapped my penis between my stomach and her pussy, and she reach down opened her labia, and started rubbing her clit up and down the shaft of my manhood, I was about to explode all over her stomach, but she use her finger nails and nipped the lobe of my ear, It hurt like hell, but it worked, it stopped my ejaculation.

So she lifted herself a bit higher, and with bit of difficulty, inched down on my penis, she had a bit of grimace on her face, then I briefly felt a bit of resistance, which went, but she cried out, and sat still for a few moments, I ask if she was ok, she nodded. Then she started moving up and down on me the smile returning to her face and she started to moan. It was the most exhilarating, stupefying, mind blowing experience, feeling her hot, wet, and quite tight pussy gripping my penis. Every time I was about to cum, she again used her finger nails to nip my ear lobe and whispered not yet! She got wilder and wilder, and then she came, screaming and shouting NOW, NOW, NOW...

At long last I was allowed to come I thought it would never stop, it was the most glorious sensational so powerful it was almost painful. When it was over, and we could breathe she wrapped her arms round me and kissed me, tenderly and passionately.

She climbed off me and led to the bathroom and we got into the shower together, she tenderly and with quite a lot kissing washed both of us. Then she led me back to her bed and we got in and she wrapped my arms round her and I think she dozed off. Eventually we heard my Mother's car coming up the drive. She pushed me out of bed. threw my clothes at me, whispered to me say absolutely nothing!

The next morning, she burst into my room, woke me by grabbing the hair on the back of my neck, she glared me and growled "You ever say anything about yesterday to me or anyone else, and I'll rip your penis off". Then she punched in the stomach and stormed out. So everything was back to normal except I was even more frightened of her!

That was it for the next 2 and a bit years, apart from once she came home from school in tears, never found out why, but she wanted a cuddle, on the sofa, and it was just a cuddle. Then on her 16th birthday, my parents setup a party for her and her friends. Then they cleared out of the house, telling me to finish my homework a go to my friend's house. So I was sat in the kitchen as her friends arrived, and was just putting my school books away, when I heard her boyfriend of the time, shout "You're dumped bitch", he laughed in her face and waltzed out. She burst into tears and ran up to her room. This sort of ended the party her best mate could get to come out of her room, so everyone left.

I thought I better go and see if she was alright before I went and fetched Mum and Dad. I knocked on her door saying "Are you alright?". Silence for a few moments and just as I was about to walk away, "Have you bought a bottle of wine up with you?", which I hadn't, "Well go and get one and two glasses and bring snacks". So we sat on her bed again drinking wine, snacking, not saying much. Until she said "Come here and cheer me up". She slipped out of dress, showing how well her bosom had filled out and what stunning nipples she now had. This time, though, her crotch was covered in thick black beautiful and inviting pubic hair, which I later explored quite thoroughly.

This time she taught me all about foreplay, then she let me get on top, to start with, she was so soft and silky, her nipples pressing in my chest. We tried several positions, until I could cum no more. Again, when we were finished she wrapped me in arms kissing me, then she said "Thank you" this time it was a long time before she let me go and led me to the shower, to wash us both. Then again we got back into her bed; she wrapped herself in my arms. After a while she started to sob, so I cuddled her all the more till she fell asleep.

The next morning she grabbed me again, and hissed at me, "if you ever say anything about last night to me or anyone, I will tear off your penis", then she me smacked round the back of the head.

Twice more, up to her being 18 and leaving for university, she had a crisis, we made love, then she showered us and we cuddled in her bed. But at 18 she left for university, got a job, got married and had children. I followed the same route a few years later. I assumed that was it between my Sister and me.

But my marriage was never a happy one, though we had 2 wonderful daughters. Also my wife was not in same league as my sister in bed, and I fantasised about my Sister often. Eventually my marriage ended about 12 years ago. I had nowhere to go, so my Sister and her Husband took me in. I was there for nearly a year. One night my Sister and her Husband had a terrible row about a business trip, which he left for leaving the argument unfinished. That night my Sister woke by climbing into my bed, this time, after our shower she spent the night with me asleep in my arms. The next morning she woke kissed me, then went and got dressed. At breakfaster she passed me my plate glared at me, so I beat her to it and said. "I know, if I talk to you or anyone else about last night you will tear of my penis." She quite gently slapped my face and said, "Correct, eat your breakfast". This was shortly before I found my own home and moved out.

Sadly, 3 months ago, after a long struggle with cancer my Brother-in-Law passed on, I shall miss him I was very fond of him.

Last night my Sister, without warning, turned up at my flat she had been crying and stayed the night, we made love, she showered us and then fell asleep in my arms. She woke this morning Kissed me and made us breakfasted. As she was going, I grabbed her arm and said to her "After all these years I have to ask, why do you keep doing this? You don't even like me, I'd go so far as toy you hate me, why I don't know, so why?". She sat us both down on my settee and, after a bit of a pause, said "You're wrong, I don't hate you, I have always loved you, that's why I gave you my virginity all those years ago, but I knew it was wrong and could never be." Then she smiled and blushed and said "besides you're the only one who has ever made me cum". She threw he arms round my neck kissed me and hugged me, then she left. As she went through my door, she looked back smiled and, in her best imitation Austrian accent, said "I'll be back!" and left.

So what do I do now?