I hate my life. My father died when I was 10 killed by a drunk driver. My mother married a drunk who I had t to hear beat her up on a regualar basis while sitting crying outside her door. I have ADD, depression & I am now a border line alcoholic thanks to my late step-father and his sick actions. I have no decent education,job,home or car to call my own. I am not capable of a relationship or friendship with a woman. I have prayed and prayed to God to help me but after 38 yrs I am still waiting for a answer. I have no more energy to live or want to live this life and God will not answer my prayer to give me the strength to take my own life. I am a coward in death as in life.