Hello all, I want to confess about the act that changed my life. It happened when I was 13 (in present I am 33), in class 8, living in a joint family. I was at home alone watching TV and my young female cousin 1 (aged 11, in class 6) came after her school finished. She went to the room to change cloths. After 10 minutes I asked my cousin to give me a glass of water and she replied that she is still changing cloths. Then at about 20 - 25 minutes I again asked her for glass of water but she didn't reply so I thought she might be a sleep. So I decided to get water myself. While I was on my way to the kitchen I heard some voice form the room, so I took a sneak peek in the room asking her permission to get in.
But as I entered the room I cannot believe what I saw. My cousin 1 was on the bed in only her school shirt nothing else, and rubbing her pussy also making strange voice. She didn't even notice me coming in room. For a moment I got embarrassed and walk out of the room. But I continued watching her from outside of the room. She was looking so beautiful and sexy with her half naked body, her open hair, her reddish pussy and legs making V shape. Then after some time she also took her shirt off and got totally naked. Then she started pressing her very small breast (with very small and pink reddish nipple) along with her pussy and other body parts. That was the first time I felt my penis was getting hard and big (it was somewhat painful). I don't know why but I put my hands in my boxers and started squeezing my penis till it got fully erected with top without skin.
Suddenly she stopped and started being normal. I quickly ran to hall to pretend I was watching TV. After some time she came out in normal dress and set besides me on sofa, started watching TV. That was the first time I was getting really uncomfortable with girl I cannot describe that feeling. After some time she asked me "You were calling me for something?" And I started mumbling "wa wat water water I was asking for a glass of water." Then she brought me a glass of water. I asked her what took her so long to change cloths, she started looking here and there and replied with fear "I fall asleep, God I was so tired" and started watching TV with me.
When I am watching my favorite power ranger TV show in noon no one can dare to change the channel not even my parents and elder brother or any of my cousins (including her). But that day when she tried to take a remote from me, I got speechless and I struggled a little but I failed for the first time. Because when the fight for remote started between me and my cousin 1, she started coming near me I could feel her body, her hair, her sweet smell, her breast touching my elbows, her butt on my legs, her body on mine. It felt so awkward losing but I don't know why I was so happy from inside, thinking something good has happened and I want that feeling again no matter how many time I loose.
It was an hour after that fight; the remote was in my cousin's hand. She was watching a movie along with combing her hair, when suddenly a rape scene appeared in movie as elder brother I told her to change the channel but she refused, so the remote fight started again. But this time I won and I started laughing and saying "I won, I won, I won" without noticing that she was again on my body, she was feeling my body, trying to touch my penis and takeover my body. I don't know why I liked that feeling but I pushed her away and got up.
At that night I could not sleep, I was having a sex kind of feeling that I could not resist. Being a joint family we all children used to sleep together in one room and she was sleeping besides my head at right angle. When I lay on by chest facing her, her pussy part was right in front of my eyes. I took a good look around to confirm that everyone was sleeping. I slowly and gently touched her stomach then her hips. Also I tried pushing my fingers in her asshole and pussy with her clothes on. But suddenly she turned on to her back. Then I waited for 10 minutes and again started. But this time I tried to take her pajama and panty down but I only succeeded partially. That is I could see her vagina partially. Then I put my hands inside her panty and started playing with her pussy. Then I hurled more strength and succeeded taking her pajama and panty off gently till her knee and started kissing, smelling and leaking her pussy and surrounded parts. It was about 15 to 20 minute play time when I noticed that something streaky white thick liquid was coming out from my penis. At that time I could not understand what to do so I rushed to bathroom and started washing my penis with water. After 5 to 7 minutes the liquid stopped and my penis got normal, I can't tell you what relief I got. I don't know what that feeling was but I liked that, then I went to my bed.
After some days when we were alone at home she told me to play with her, I said ok and asked her what she would like to play. She replied "Let's play Doctor-Doctor" I said "What is this game? How to play it?" She told me that she will act as a patient and I have to act as a doctor who treats her with doctor kit. I said ok and started the game. I settled on a bed with doctor kit, she took two rounds of room and asked for my permission to sit beside me on bed. I gave her the permission and when she got settled I asked her what is wrong with her. She lay by her breast and took off her panty and told me to check her asshole as she is feeling pain there. I got shocked and told her "What are you doing? What are you saying?" Then she told me that she had seen me watching her masturbating, taking her pajamas and panty off, playing with her pussy. I was so embarrassed that I started walking out the room but she stopped me and told me that she liked this feeling too and want to experience more. But the problem was that none of us were having idea about having sex, so we just lay on each other touching, kissing and feeling each other"s whole body and leaking the fluids of each other.
This repeated again and again till 3 years (I was 16 and my cousin 1 was 14, she was still looking same not much change in body but with high thirst of having foreplay). Both of us used to have foreplay whenever we get chance, satisfying each other"s body need. This matter got serious to me once I learned about computer, internet and sex disease such as AIDS and found that I could have made her pregnant since we were not using condoms. I thanked the God to never let my penis get in to my cousin 1"s pussy, as I would have ruined her life. After that I told all these things to my cousin 1. And that was the last times we had full enjoyable foreplay because she got really sacred of having oral sex and decided not have sex before marriage. She controlled her feeling but I couldn't.
After 3 day I to convinced her to have foreplay (not sex) with me, and she got convinced. But this time she was not very comfortable or batter to say interested. Because in starting of foreplay when I was taking off my cloths, she told me not to take off my underwear. I understood the situation, and agreed on it. She was sitting beside me, so I asked her to come close to me and started touching her private parts thought her cloths. Then I took off her t-shirt, bra (I never understood why she was wearing bra, since she was not having much bra kind of breast) and skirt, next was her panty but she stopped me. I understood why, and then I got on her pressing, kissing, feeling her medium breast, her face, her neck. Suddenly she stopped me saying that she is feeling pain due to my body and my weight. (That was the moment I felt like rapist forcing a girl to have sex). So I stopped and began wearing my cloths, suddenly she said this was the last time and she will never do this again ever. She told me to keep this a secret and behave like nothing happened ever. And I promised her on that.
But as I entered the room I cannot believe what I saw. My cousin 1 was on the bed in only her school shirt nothing else, and rubbing her pussy also making strange voice. She didn't even notice me coming in room. For a moment I got embarrassed and walk out of the room. But I continued watching her from outside of the room. She was looking so beautiful and sexy with her half naked body, her open hair, her reddish pussy and legs making V shape. Then after some time she also took her shirt off and got totally naked. Then she started pressing her very small breast (with very small and pink reddish nipple) along with her pussy and other body parts. That was the first time I felt my penis was getting hard and big (it was somewhat painful). I don't know why but I put my hands in my boxers and started squeezing my penis till it got fully erected with top without skin.
Suddenly she stopped and started being normal. I quickly ran to hall to pretend I was watching TV. After some time she came out in normal dress and set besides me on sofa, started watching TV. That was the first time I was getting really uncomfortable with girl I cannot describe that feeling. After some time she asked me "You were calling me for something?" And I started mumbling "wa wat water water I was asking for a glass of water." Then she brought me a glass of water. I asked her what took her so long to change cloths, she started looking here and there and replied with fear "I fall asleep, God I was so tired" and started watching TV with me.
When I am watching my favorite power ranger TV show in noon no one can dare to change the channel not even my parents and elder brother or any of my cousins (including her). But that day when she tried to take a remote from me, I got speechless and I struggled a little but I failed for the first time. Because when the fight for remote started between me and my cousin 1, she started coming near me I could feel her body, her hair, her sweet smell, her breast touching my elbows, her butt on my legs, her body on mine. It felt so awkward losing but I don't know why I was so happy from inside, thinking something good has happened and I want that feeling again no matter how many time I loose.
It was an hour after that fight; the remote was in my cousin's hand. She was watching a movie along with combing her hair, when suddenly a rape scene appeared in movie as elder brother I told her to change the channel but she refused, so the remote fight started again. But this time I won and I started laughing and saying "I won, I won, I won" without noticing that she was again on my body, she was feeling my body, trying to touch my penis and takeover my body. I don't know why I liked that feeling but I pushed her away and got up.
At that night I could not sleep, I was having a sex kind of feeling that I could not resist. Being a joint family we all children used to sleep together in one room and she was sleeping besides my head at right angle. When I lay on by chest facing her, her pussy part was right in front of my eyes. I took a good look around to confirm that everyone was sleeping. I slowly and gently touched her stomach then her hips. Also I tried pushing my fingers in her asshole and pussy with her clothes on. But suddenly she turned on to her back. Then I waited for 10 minutes and again started. But this time I tried to take her pajama and panty down but I only succeeded partially. That is I could see her vagina partially. Then I put my hands inside her panty and started playing with her pussy. Then I hurled more strength and succeeded taking her pajama and panty off gently till her knee and started kissing, smelling and leaking her pussy and surrounded parts. It was about 15 to 20 minute play time when I noticed that something streaky white thick liquid was coming out from my penis. At that time I could not understand what to do so I rushed to bathroom and started washing my penis with water. After 5 to 7 minutes the liquid stopped and my penis got normal, I can't tell you what relief I got. I don't know what that feeling was but I liked that, then I went to my bed.
After some days when we were alone at home she told me to play with her, I said ok and asked her what she would like to play. She replied "Let's play Doctor-Doctor" I said "What is this game? How to play it?" She told me that she will act as a patient and I have to act as a doctor who treats her with doctor kit. I said ok and started the game. I settled on a bed with doctor kit, she took two rounds of room and asked for my permission to sit beside me on bed. I gave her the permission and when she got settled I asked her what is wrong with her. She lay by her breast and took off her panty and told me to check her asshole as she is feeling pain there. I got shocked and told her "What are you doing? What are you saying?" Then she told me that she had seen me watching her masturbating, taking her pajamas and panty off, playing with her pussy. I was so embarrassed that I started walking out the room but she stopped me and told me that she liked this feeling too and want to experience more. But the problem was that none of us were having idea about having sex, so we just lay on each other touching, kissing and feeling each other"s whole body and leaking the fluids of each other.
This repeated again and again till 3 years (I was 16 and my cousin 1 was 14, she was still looking same not much change in body but with high thirst of having foreplay). Both of us used to have foreplay whenever we get chance, satisfying each other"s body need. This matter got serious to me once I learned about computer, internet and sex disease such as AIDS and found that I could have made her pregnant since we were not using condoms. I thanked the God to never let my penis get in to my cousin 1"s pussy, as I would have ruined her life. After that I told all these things to my cousin 1. And that was the last times we had full enjoyable foreplay because she got really sacred of having oral sex and decided not have sex before marriage. She controlled her feeling but I couldn't.
After 3 day I to convinced her to have foreplay (not sex) with me, and she got convinced. But this time she was not very comfortable or batter to say interested. Because in starting of foreplay when I was taking off my cloths, she told me not to take off my underwear. I understood the situation, and agreed on it. She was sitting beside me, so I asked her to come close to me and started touching her private parts thought her cloths. Then I took off her t-shirt, bra (I never understood why she was wearing bra, since she was not having much bra kind of breast) and skirt, next was her panty but she stopped me. I understood why, and then I got on her pressing, kissing, feeling her medium breast, her face, her neck. Suddenly she stopped me saying that she is feeling pain due to my body and my weight. (That was the moment I felt like rapist forcing a girl to have sex). So I stopped and began wearing my cloths, suddenly she said this was the last time and she will never do this again ever. She told me to keep this a secret and behave like nothing happened ever. And I promised her on that.
