I cannot explain how disgusting and guilty I feel for all of the horrible things I've done to you. I try to justify it by telling myself you're in jail and that if you cared about me you would be in the free world with me and I never would have done anything close to this, but it's not true. In the year we have been together you have been to jail 90% of it, I'm lonely, so I seek companionship from friends, friends of yours.. I messed up bad. I cheated, I never meant to hurt you, it just happened, it wasn't planned. I don't expect you to understand or even forgive me, if I were you I'd just forget about me.. It all happened so fast, it got too out've control. I felt awful afterwards, but that means nothing. I still did it..