IÂ&acute ;ve been married for some time now, little under 8 years, and for the past 6 the sex has been very scarce (about 5 times a year... maybe). The first few years i tried to get close to her, but she wouldn't let me; and maybe it is my fault, maybe i'm not doing what i should maybe i'm not the husband i'm supposed to be, or maybe she just doesn't like me anymore.

I have never believed in cheating, i believe it ends a relationship, and still everyday i see a beautiful woman (wich is just about everywhere i look) i cant help bu to imagne her naked and next to me; while i tri my best not to stare.

Even if i talk to these women for some reason (could be a friend of ours, a neighbor, our childs teacher, another mom at our childs school...) i never let any of this be known; or at least i think nobody notices;

And i cant help but to think that if ever one of these women said she wanted something more with me, i'd take here.
And i do not want this... and still... i'd do it...