For the first time, I've done tons of drugs at once tonight. So many. I took GHB, meth, weed, and coke. Since seven p.m. to seven o'clock this morning. I can hardly see straight because I just did more GHB about a half an hour ago.

There's a hot black strong model guy staying over for the night, and we fooled around and kissed. He said he was extremely attracted to me, and said I was sexy. He's close friends with my model girl friend, as well as housemate. Leaving for New York this morning. He's hot though, and I'm planning on having sex with him. I touched his erection, and it's big. He wanted me, and I wanted him. Maybe we can fuck before he leaves.

He, as well as a bunch of my other housemates, were also doing drugs, and some drinking. I was the only one who'd done that many, but they still did a lot of it. The model bought three-hundred dollars worth of GHB. Which fucks you up good. It fucks up your equilibrium and you can't see straight for shit. But it's great. You feel good.

I never do this normally. This is one of my once on a rare occasional what-the-fuck-am-I-doing thing. And I'm still up. I need to work. I'm only eighteen, and living on my own, by the way. Everyone else is older than me. Some by a few years, some by a lot. My life is crazy.

I can't even read the fucking captcha right. This will take a while. Damn.