I don't know if this qualifies under this category, but I am going to post it anyway. I am really sick of having the problem that I have. I am a legitimate sex addict. I am engaged to an amazing man, but he just isn't giving me all that I need. I do NOT ever want to cheat on him, but in my mind it is all I think about anymore.

I find myself fantasizing about being with other men, even more than one at a time. I fantasize about women too. I am allowed to be with women though, but it is just so hard to find serious people anymore. So I am stuck in the world of my own fantasies.

They range from the smallest and simplest things to the extreme and elaborate. I think the worst one is the fantasy of being gang banged by 3 or more guys. I just cant find anything to curb my sex drive. I masturbate over 15 times a day, watch porn constantly, and day dream about everything I could be doing.

It is just wrong. If my fiance knew the things that I wanted to do it would break his heart. I just hope I can keep my strength and hold on...