I hate my current life. I feel so stupid that I don't have enough brains to get out of it. I can envision a life in a better place, but the reality is that I'm stuck here because I can't be given a chance to better myself. I love my partner of 4 years, but he deserves so much better. I'll never be good enough for him. He'd be better off without me. I'm worthless now, and will be the rest of my life. I'm better off dead. No one deserves a loser like me.