I've technically been raped before.

I like to go to parties and get shitfaced drunk, but when I do I tend to pass out, usually half naked. Well, I know how guys are, one time a few years ago I passed out at a party at one ofmy friends houses. I don't really remember what all I did beforehand, but when I woke up I was laying half off of her mom's bed with my skirt hiked up and my panties around my ankles.

Aside from the way I was laying there, I just FELT like I had been fucked. I knew I was supposed to feel violated or whatever, but I didn't. I actually sort of enjoyed it. I enjoyed it enough, that I want it to happen again. I keep going to parties and getting drunk off my ass, trying to make sure I pass out near a bed. When I go to a party I wear short skirts and no panties to make it easier.

It hasn't happened since then, but I'm gonna keep trying. If anyone has any idea what I could do to make it more likely to happen please tell me.