Straight Male / 40
Wow ! What a night. So you understood my hint and stayed late after work when I told you I would be working late tonight. And you asked me the question I was dying to answer. Yes, I have feelings for you. Yes I mattracted t you. Yes I have a crush on you. I just still can't believe you feel the same way. It is weird for me. and what a weird conversation it was. Analysing our feelings like that. You were much more emotional yesterday. Teling me you had thoughts, that you didn't understand yourself. Me either.
I don't understand how I can be in love with my wife and still have these intense feelings for you. Why can<t I stop thinking of you, when I know this will never happen and that it should never happen. I'm afraid I scared you away by being too honest - maybe it's for the best. I'm afraid you will think I'm an obsessed freak. It dows feel good to know that you are attracted to me too. i actually get the feeling that you were thinking about this before I even realized how I felt, though I know now that I have been attracted to you for years.
I think that is why this is so strange - it's because it is real. we are sneaking around like we are having an affaire, when we have never even layed hands on each other, with the exception of the time I rubbed your beautifull ass at the x-mas party. That's where it all began, when I crossed that line. I can't believe I was so obvioux with my feelings that night. It was really like you were my date - pulling your chair for you. It's too bad. I would love to be able to do that for you more often. Open your doors, rub your neck and kiss it. Shit, my heart is ging about 200 miles an hour just thinking about it. I love that you say you are nervous when I am around. How flatering for a guy like me to have a girl like you interested in me. It maddens me to think that other guys have felft this way about you before - I don't want to be another dumb guy hipnotized by your beauty. But, it's nice to know that you haven't felt this way about another guy before. I agree, we do have great chemistry.
But, I don't know what to do. I don't feel that these feelings will go away, and I don't think I want them to. At the same time, I am so afraid of acting on them. I think it would be the worst thing we could do on many levels. Not the least of which would be that we could ruin the good thing that we have going now. I am afraid of breaking the illusion you have of me.
No I don't want to leave my wife as you asked me twice. i find it funny that you would suggest this when nothing has happened between us. No sex, not a kiss, barely a touch. You can only bring yourself to punch my shoulder. It's actually quite funny. Anyway, thanks for making me feel good about myself. To have a beautifull yound girl like you thinking of me is pretty awesome. I am truly sorry if I caused all this with my behaviour that night. But I must say that it was a magical night. FUCK what a mess.
I don't understand how I can be in love with my wife and still have these intense feelings for you. Why can<t I stop thinking of you, when I know this will never happen and that it should never happen. I'm afraid I scared you away by being too honest - maybe it's for the best. I'm afraid you will think I'm an obsessed freak. It dows feel good to know that you are attracted to me too. i actually get the feeling that you were thinking about this before I even realized how I felt, though I know now that I have been attracted to you for years.
I think that is why this is so strange - it's because it is real. we are sneaking around like we are having an affaire, when we have never even layed hands on each other, with the exception of the time I rubbed your beautifull ass at the x-mas party. That's where it all began, when I crossed that line. I can't believe I was so obvioux with my feelings that night. It was really like you were my date - pulling your chair for you. It's too bad. I would love to be able to do that for you more often. Open your doors, rub your neck and kiss it. Shit, my heart is ging about 200 miles an hour just thinking about it. I love that you say you are nervous when I am around. How flatering for a guy like me to have a girl like you interested in me. It maddens me to think that other guys have felft this way about you before - I don't want to be another dumb guy hipnotized by your beauty. But, it's nice to know that you haven't felt this way about another guy before. I agree, we do have great chemistry.
But, I don't know what to do. I don't feel that these feelings will go away, and I don't think I want them to. At the same time, I am so afraid of acting on them. I think it would be the worst thing we could do on many levels. Not the least of which would be that we could ruin the good thing that we have going now. I am afraid of breaking the illusion you have of me.
No I don't want to leave my wife as you asked me twice. i find it funny that you would suggest this when nothing has happened between us. No sex, not a kiss, barely a touch. You can only bring yourself to punch my shoulder. It's actually quite funny. Anyway, thanks for making me feel good about myself. To have a beautifull yound girl like you thinking of me is pretty awesome. I am truly sorry if I caused all this with my behaviour that night. But I must say that it was a magical night. FUCK what a mess.
