I love my husband more than I can put into words. He's a great person. I could talk for hours trying to describe all the reasons, but I'm not here to talk about that. He never wants to have sex. I've only had sex with him a couple times since we've been married and he always came too early. He masturbates a lot, though.

Now, I would be willing to overlook this. We're still very physical, we cuddle a lot and watch movies, we could spend hours making out like teenagers... The problem is, that I can't masturbate. No matter what I've tried, I can't have an orgasm unless I have a real penis inside me. I've bought 50 or more toys that simply do not work for me, no combination of dildos, vibrators, lubrication, rubbing, positions, or even mental imagery works. Only sex involving that wonderful fleshy stick being rammed into me. I still feel pleasure, but I can't get over the edge to actually have an orgasm. I don't know why, my doctor doesn't know why... that's just how it is.

So the only way I can cum is if I have sex, but my husband doesn't want to fuck me. I don't want to cheat or leave him, either, that's absolutely out of the question. What makes it even worse is that on the rare times we have had sex, he always finishes RIGHT BEFORE I am about to climax, then within seconds he's too limp to finish me off. This, along with the fact that he always masturbates a lot shortly after I give up trying to get myself off makes me feel like he... might... have some kind of fetish for women/me almost having an orgasm and then not being able to finish.

I'm going to talk to him about it tomorrow night. If he does have a fetish for it, I'm more than willing to work something out with him. If he doesn't have this fetish, and there's some like mental or physical reason for this, I'm going to try to help him through it and if it's something that can't be helped I'm going to see how he feels about letting other men fuck me every so often so I can have some relief.