I am attracted to slim females (who look or are over 18) in leather pants, leather leggings, latex or jeans. every time I come across females wearing these type of clothing, I cannot help but look at them every chance I get without being obvious about it.

Sometimes at home I have a temptation to look up porn involving woman in leather pants, jeans or picture of them on the internet when I am bored. The thing is, I feel guilt talking to female friends or family members after doing this. Deep inside me it feels wrong. At times I do try to convince myself that it is normal and that a lot of people probably do the same. Often when I do this I have an urge to talk to someone over the internet that go through similar situation as me.

There have been times when I either wanted to meet the women in the porn videos that I watch and talk to them, or suicide due to suicidal thoughts that occur.

I have learnt about the fact that I seem to be attracted to women who are older than me.