I want to be raped!

There I said it. I know it won't happen as a result of posting here since nobody knows who I am and won't find out either. But I want it to happen. I am in my teens and I am good looking. I have a boyfriend and we fuck. But he is way the fuck too gentle with me. He touches me like a girl and I want to feel it roughly. I beg him to rape me and make it hurt good and he tickles me and giggles. I want him to tie me and and slap me around and ram it in my hard and fast and make me cry and he kisses my cheak and tells me nobody wants to be raped and then he just goes back and makes love to me like a girl. I love him and I know he loves me and I would do anything for him but I just wishe he would grow a pair and do this one thing I need and crave desperately. He is just way the fuck too nice. I don't want to hurt him. I would prefer he be the one to rape me. In fact I NEED him to be the one to rape me but he just won't. I will settle for having a complete stranger rape me if that is what it takes. I am not insane I know I have to be careful and choose my rapist wisely. I am just at a loss as to how and honestly if I have to wait much longer I am going to put on my sexiest innocent little school girl outfit and go prancing as sexy as I can in front of the jail and wiggle my ass at the convicts as they are released hoping one will just grab me and take me home and use and abuse me the way I need desperately need it. I promise I won't tell anyone. If you do it good enough I will let you come back and do it again if you want. I'm saying that to no one in particular, just practicing for standing out in front of the jail.