If I could have any wish I would go back in time to when I was 12 and accept the offer a middle aged guy made me to let him have sex with me. He was hot looking and about 50. I think he was about 60% muscle and 40% cock and at 12 I had just realized I was gay and saw him in his backyard in a speedo sunning himself and I masturbated while looking at him from my bedroom window. Then he caught me staring at me through a hole in the fence and he came up to the fence and asked if I'd like to suck is cock or maybe get rammed up the ass by his cock and he took it out and showed it to me and I wanted to really bad but then I got scared and ran back in the house and he laughed then I had no contact with him ever again.

That was my only regret in life, not climbing the fence and surendering myself to him to use as a fuck hole. He was my primary masturbatory fantasy for over 10 years. He still has the biggest cock I ever saw.