I'm a serial cheater, a sex addict, and totally out of control. I can come 4-5 times a day and it's never enough. Women, men, all ages (not minors) and races, I have done it all and continue to do so at age 55. I'm sick and need help.

I've know I was bi since the day when I was 7 years old, a neighbor threw out a bunch of body-building magazines. I saw them sitting there on top of the trash and started looking at them, at the beach, men flexing, the bulges. I got so aroused by those pics, yes even at that age, that I passed out. My grandmother found me lying on the floor unconscious with all these pictures.

I had to go to the hospital for a serious injury and was molested there by an intern. He fondled me repeatedly for the five days I was there. I was 9 years old.

Later I was an awkward overweight teen and I craved girls but was too shy. Guess what, I lost weight and overcame shyness at age 19 and I went crazy. I cheated on every one of my girlfriends and two wives. I never turned down anyone who came on to me, no matter what he or she wanted to do or how kinky it was. I had sex like I would never have it again. I just couldn't say no to anyone.

I had sex with guys for money. I convinced my girlfriend to let me do it with her sister. I was a slave to a black man. I was a Dom to a kinky Jewish wife. I was a cross-dresser and actually was passable, and I had sex for money that way too.

When I married my second wife and the kids came along, I was faithful to her for 8 years. Then our marriage started having problems and I fell back to my old ways...hard.

The threat of AIDS slowed me down but did not stop me. I used condoms sometimes, but other times I took huge risks. I should have been infected dozens of times over, but by some miracle I'm not.

I need serious help, but I have gone to therapists and SLAA and I'm still doing these things. I can't say no to anyone for anything and will probably be killed by a jealous husband or sick partner. I had to get this off my chest.