2 weekends ago the weirdest thing happened. i live 3 houses from my cousin. he and i hang out alot. well i never saw this coming at all!!! he is 15 and i am 17. 2 saturdays ago, we were hanging out watchin tv, nothing special. out of freakin nowhere....he handed me an envelope. he got up and left the room. it was a note. omfg!!! brendan told me he was pretty much in love with me, and that i was the hottest girl in the world. it was a long note, but that was basically what it said, that and that hed do anything to be with me. i was so totally shocked!!! i got up to go find him, he was standing in the kitchen. i really dodnt know what to do. i mean hes really cute, but hes my mom's brothers son! and ive known him since we were babies. i told him i was flattered, but we couldnt ever be together, obviously. i think he knew that, but he had other ideas i guess. he said nothing but handed me another envelope...obviously he had planned this for a while. the envelope had money in it. omg!!! it was 117 dollars. i was jsut blown away..he had been like saving for this. i didnt know what to do. i asked brendan if he was offering me money for sex...and he didnt bat an eye lash...he said yes. he begged...just once he kept sayin. and that it would be a total secret. i was so confused. but something inside me told me to be stupid....so i did. i tok his 117 dollars, took him by the hand to my bedroom upstairs. the look on his cute face as i took my clothes off was priceless. i couldnt believe what was happening. i knew it was so wrong. but it happened. and in a way im glad it did...because brendan has an ENORMOUS cock!! omfg!! we had sex 4 times, and i let him do about anything he wanted. even once in my butt...and im pretty sure he is close to 9"..jsut freakin huge. and it hurt too;) the most awful thing....my uncle asked me to hang out at the house because he and my aunt were out of town...and i spent the night in bed with brendan. the other thing...brendadn left me a note in my car today and told me he is in loive with me. and the final thing...i want to be with him again...sex i mean. its a mess.