i had to run away from him because he almost choked me to death. he was the jealous type and would become enraged at me every time another man so much as looked at me. i love him so much and there are things i really miss about the relationship such as

-giving him foot rubs
-cooking for him & cleaning up in nothing but my frilly panties
-soaping his back in the shower while kissing him & putting my head against his tummy.. he was so tall.
-getting him his drink & sitting on his lap
-waking him up in the morning with a blow job & breakfast in bed.. having him cream in my mouth
-sitting at his feet & placing my head in his lap whenever he returned home
-telling him that i love him & calling him master & daddy..
-sleeping with my head against his chest listening to his heart beating

where am i ever going to find another man who will appreciate these things?? i feel so lonely and
i know that having a man take care of me the way i'd take care of him.. would make it all better