Literally if he only knew. I've had this crush on him for soooo long. He's older and i'm only 20 but there is something about him that drives me wild. I think its the hair. I see a guy with hair past his shoulders and I go wild. I think I'd do anything for a man who looked like sephiroth (no joke). And my boss, my supervisor isnt the most attractive person but he's got hair and its so rare for where i'm at.
Now, he has no clue but ive been fingering myself to the thought of him taking me into the back warehouse where the cameras cant see and raping me for months. Its not always him i think about but when i want to get off really good I think of him.
And then i find out today that he has a new cute girlfriend and is smitten with her. I had just gotten up the courage to say something to him about being attracted and I find this out. Why?? Over the past months didnt I just say "Hey, I want to feel your dick buried into my tight little pussy."
So many posts on here are about how easy it is to fuck someone you want to. Why cant one time, work out for me. I have a boyfriend yes but he's not in love with me anymore and I can tell. So more now than ever I just want to feel a nice big cock between my legs. I've waited long enough for it.
I masturbate every fucking night too. Sometimes my bf is lying next to me asleep. I just want it so bad. It took me all fucking day to work up the courage to do something and then i find that out. So disappointing. I just want to be raped.
Hell, maybe not even by him. I'd settle for any fucking rape. I'm so god damned horny most of the time some days its all i fucking think about. Today was like that. I kept thinking about him taking me aside and then when we were alone he'd just push me to the wall, not saying a word, unzip his pants and rip off my clothes before he shoved his hard cock between my legs. By then I'd be fucking wet anyway. Just the thought of him rubbing it makes me wet.
And now that i cant have him, I'm kinda thinking about fucking the guy that likes me. I mean, he's available and I need a dick.
Dont get me wrong. I am no slut. I would never do most of the things i fantasize about (trust me there's a lot of weird shit I like). I just really need a cock. Ever feel like that?? Anyone??