I wasn't very popular with girls. I lack the confidence because of my 4.5 inch penis. I was humiliated by my first and only girlfriend very badly and I'm not into that kind of thing.

When I was 16 I fell asleep in my bestfriend's room and he woke me up with the most amazing blowjob ever.

I was well awake through most of it at shock and pleased at the same time. This was my first blowjob after-all. I did not know what to say to him. "Whatever I'm going to say, I'll say it afterwards."

He sucked me dry that first time and when I came (after an awkward 20 mins) he swallowed me whole. When I did not say anything he put my (now flaccid) penis in his mouth and did some kind of quick suction movement that just BLEW-MY-MIND and I was hard again. I think he made me come twice and even sucked me off a 3rd time (which just yeilded watery precum looking thing).

I do not love him but I do love him (as my fucking bestfriend)... and he's really not worried because he knows no girl is gonna suck me that way.

Btw... he's very submissive. I USE him all the time.

I sleep in his apartment... wake up and use his mouth like a sex toy of some sort... He can't suck as fast as I like so I guide his mouth up and down. And I never get up... or mouth fuck him either. No. I'm too lazy for that.

I make him suck me the first 2 times. Then I'll make him suck me the 3rd time and soon he'll start crying about how his neck hurts. Then I would say "but I'm not finished yet. Your neck will get stronger after a while." and I say that very sweetly. Then I'll take his head in both my hands and use it like a sex toy... I love it when he cries. Sometimes I will stop and wipe his face and snot with some tissue and sweetly giggle and say "very good. let's try that again. this time put more suction. If you are not sucking right this will just take longer. I need you to focus now. Ok??" *mwah*...

I have never hit him but I do hurt his neck by using his head like a sex-toy (I forget the name).

After crying all that much he still, at the end of it, says he liked it.

I have never had anal sex with him either.

He sucks me off atleast 5 days a week. I am sexually very satisfied.

I'm not a virgin either. I hired a hooker the first time. Then this another time, at a party, some girl mistook my shyness as playing-hard-to-get... lol... so I did end up having a lot of sex with her but she didn't blow me like he did. She didn't blow me at all. And when I finally pushed her to it.. she gave such a lousy one I told her to stop and that it's ok. We fucked then I went out to "get some food". I go to my friend's house, made him blow me twice, and came back and made out with her.

I take a lot of heroin. I don't look like a junkie because I work a decent job and get paid.

I'm not gay. I wish I was gay. Sometimes I tell myself I'm a bad person for not being gay "for him". In a way I do love him. It's very hard to not love someone who swallows your come so readily.

I want a woman. Looks like this is the closest thing I have to a woman. That still does not give me any reason to USE my friend.

(ladies if you wanna keep your man, then blow him. without him even having to ask you. no matter how small his penis is he will never feel inadequate. if you are a girl who's told her lover that your ex's was bigger and now wishing you didn't say it... surprise blow him and swallow also... he will feel so confident!)

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wow.. so many confessions in one... they are all related I guess.