I am 24 female and I am gay. I have been dating girls since my freshman year of highschool, and only had one boyfriend, of which I only kissed a few times. He broke up with me because I never wanted to move along sexually, and it lasted only 3 or 4 months. I have always been attracted to women. I love the way they kiss, their tits, seeing their asses in tight jeans, and I love eating pussy. I am so good at it, and I pride myself in finding straight women that I can charm enough to get a chance to lick their wet pussies. I love how shocked and satisfied they are when I'm done. I also have always kind of envied men in that they have a real penis. Sure, I've used dildos and strap ons to fuck women, and I love to fuck them hard and be rough with them, but I sometimes just wish I could cum all over their face or tits or ass the way men can. I want to be strong enough to be super forceful with them. I love to watch porn, and I love to watch girls getting roughly gagged by mens cocks. I like to hear the women get called bitches and roughly fucked in all holes. I have had sex with two guys in my life. Neither knows about the other, and I have not told any of my friends or family. It's funny, I hate the way men kiss. It feels awkward and does not turn me on when they fingered me, all I could think was I am so much better at touching myself. I wont lie, when their dick was in me, god it felt good, warm and filling me up. I'm very tight, as I've only fucked one of the guys once, and the other twice. Rarely do I let another girl strap on for me. Dick feels so good in my pussy, but the man is so unattractive. The kisses are gross, and any intimacy is a huge turn off. I think about fucking women as hard as they are fucking me. I like turning on men, and I'm not even a feminine girl. I have short hair and by average judgement look very gay or 'dyke like' if you will. I have a girlfriend, for almost two years. SHe is so hot, and was straight before me. She tell me I was the first to ever make her cum, and I am great at it. I fantasize about men taking advantage of her while I watch, wishing I could do this to her. I'd love to make her cum on my face or choke on my cock, but I don't have one. I have tried to suck a guys dick, i did it, and it turned me on that he was so turned on (i prob wasnt good but he felt like he was turning out a lesbo) we fucked until he was about to cum and he pulled out,the cum only getting all over his stomache. i Immediately felt gross and disgusted by him, and when i thought about sucking his dick, I literally started gagging. I brushed my teeth and pretended the gag was from my toothbrush. I immediately wanted him gone. i was done, didn't want his gross kisses or more dick. I think this is weird, any thought???????? Am I gay???????? MY girlfriend though she dated men does not want one at all, and would definitely be repulsed if i asked her to get fucked by a man in front of me. I don't know what to think of myself or my habits. I feel confused.